iammuslim98
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Aoa. Probably this will be my last post on this platform. I have been confused for a really long time. One thing I noticed. Ever since I started offering regular salah, I attached unrealistic hopes with Allah. And ever since, my life has been nothing but a train wreck. For so many years, I have been suffering. I know God does not owe me anything. However, a simple response would be good. Consider this example. If your friend does not respond, despite yyour constant calls and messages, you will eventually stop trying. I guess, I have reached that stage. I have literally seen things taken away from me, that I genuinely and specifically did dua for.
I am aware of the saying that Allah is shy to turn His slave away empty handed. I am aware of the Quranic verses where Allah tells to do dua, and He will respond. But i think, I should be as realistic as possible.
I do not intend to stop offering salah nor stop doing dua. But I guess I might not do it with the same enthusiasm and faith any more. I was never a good muslim, to begin with. So I am not surprised that my duas went unanswered. I am thankful for the food, for the house, for the clothes. But I also am thankful for my mental illness, for my immaturity, for my fears to Allah. We are not prophets. Miracles are not meant for us. We should measure all aspects and then do dua. Please remember me in your good prayers.
I am aware of the saying that Allah is shy to turn His slave away empty handed. I am aware of the Quranic verses where Allah tells to do dua, and He will respond. But i think, I should be as realistic as possible.
I do not intend to stop offering salah nor stop doing dua. But I guess I might not do it with the same enthusiasm and faith any more. I was never a good muslim, to begin with. So I am not surprised that my duas went unanswered. I am thankful for the food, for the house, for the clothes. But I also am thankful for my mental illness, for my immaturity, for my fears to Allah. We are not prophets. Miracles are not meant for us. We should measure all aspects and then do dua. Please remember me in your good prayers.
