Rukya

It says that doing Rukya on our own is better. But what if its really bad? (headaches, dreams, nothing works out, bad relationships with everyone, people from parents to coworkers to friends cant stand you, difficulty moving, always in the most gloomy mood, and getting triggered for smallest things, and then crying, can self Rukya work? And what if its being done to the person who you were supposed to marry? The relationship is so bad now that they cant hear anything from you. so what do you do?

Bismi Allahi wa salatu wa salam alaa nabiiyuna Muhammed wa alaa alihi wa ashabihi ajmaeen.

https://www.google.com/amp/s/islamqa.info/amp/en/answers/139092

This part is not clear:

And what if its being done to the person who you were supposed to marry? The relationship is so bad now that they cant hear anything from you. so what do you do?

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