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SoldierAmatUllah
Oh my...
I'm happy to know you're in better condition ♥
My issue is I did things with knowledge and love for ALLAH,but HE always rejected me ,my good opinion about Him is shattered- yeah lots of miracles but in reality worse kind things
How would you describe a dream of azaabul qabr,hun?Seeing scary angels kinda thing that's so real,loss of dunya & finally religion- I'm afraid to say but God has actually punished,since 2,4,8& 19 years- big tortures & OCD that ugly my life even more.
Too difficult to wake up,to type,to eat,to be in washroom,to beautify myself,to work online,to talk,to cook,to drink water & 24/7 oppression- scared every night to sleep.
I am from middle class,not much financial issues but nothing seems like a blessing if am gonna be in Hellfire
May someone help me with resources for I heard this story very long time ago and never bothered about it after that. It was about an alim who saw a dream with his house in Jannah. He woke up, of course was happy but got up and did more ibadaah and good deeds. Someone asked him "why are you doing more while you're shown your place in Jannah" and he responded: That might change will the end of my life. Then he saw opposite dream. I think also adhabul kabr and his reaction was the same.
I personally saw our Prophet saws many times in my dreams and some more prophets. Musa a.s. and Sulayman a.s. were rescuing me from something very dark (probably jinn world), I saw Isa a.s... but maybe 2 years later I dropped into gaflah, lost my imaan and no one would ever tell that I will see our Prophet saws in Judgment day - meaning I might end up in Jahannam with not a second of Jannah ever, for my life was very western for few years. I haven't seen any such dream again although I came back to Islam.
As for rejections, I begged Allah not to give me another hardship for at least 2 months as I have become very weak. But He did and alhamdulillah I had strength to overcome it. But, Allah warned me what is going to happen and made me prepared. I've been thinking, maybe I got this hardship for few days instead of years of hardships, just because I made my dua and this hardship prevented that suffering. We don't know what is happening really.
I also aksed Him to teach me tawakkul and then I went through a lot until my tawakkul became super high.
An example: Once I rescued an animal from torture. But this animal suffered transport and she never understood why she had to vomit in the car and why am I doing this to her. But if I didn't, she would be tortured for years, and this lasted for few hours only. This is what happens to us while suffering from hardships and don't understand why.
Sister, the more you're dear to Allah, the more you're going through. It's ok to share with fellow Muslims things you're going through for that's what's Ummah for. The dream you had could be from shaytan, not from Allah. Other things also. Shaytan threatens us with misery and wants us to be frightened from everything and to fear Allah in wrong way. Yes, I know, on Judgment day we'll all be frightened before the Judgment starts. I know that, but Allah is not like that. Allah is so loving, caring, Merciful. Fearing Allah is great but more in sense of feeling shame from disobedience for He's giving us so much. I started 100 hamd challenge daily and It takes me so long to count only 100 blessings from Allah. I make it, but at the beginning it took me so long. And He actually gives us endless amount of blessings, we're just not aware of it.
I'm def. going to make strong dua for you. I hope Allah will give you insight over what is really going on in your life. I want you to become so happy like I was few years ago when my torture ended for good. And I hope other brothers and sisters are going to do the same. That's very important for Ummah.
With love sister and assalamu alaikum wa rahmetullah