Lost love for Allah

[Lostsoul11]

Hello brothers and sisters.
I am a 28 year old man, almost 29.
Through out all my life i have been a very decent man, i
Pray 5 times a day, i fasted 16 ramadans completley, avoided zinah
And all the major sins. Yet
Somehow i feel left out and not very loved by Allah.
My biggest probkwm is the the fact the He isnt providing me
With a spouse, and this is making it even more difficult for me
To stay away from zinah. I been prayibg and waiting, i have
Wasted all my youth to be devoted and honorable, and yet
I see people who are way worse than me and evil and Allah
Still gives them. I have come to a point where
I have lost faith conpletwly but still do my obligations.

I have completley lost my love for Allah, the god i sacrifced son much for
, and yet wont give me the most basic thing. I feel left out
I am tested with many other hard tribulations but none come close to
Not bein able to find someone to love.
I feel so so so left out by allah, so deprived of somethint so important
I basialy have come to the point where i dont like his writing for me

I have seen beautiful women even religious ones go to people
Who deseve way less. What kind of God is this?

Seriously. I need to hear your words.

Im just too afraid that i wont ve able to take this anymore
And commit zinah cayse if i wanr, i can.

Even in this strugfle He wont help me, in the struggle of staying good

[Lostsoul11]

Hello brothers and sisters.
I am a 28 year old man, almost 29.
Through out all my life i have been a very decent man, i
Pray 5 times a day, i fasted 16 ramadans completley, avoided zinah
And all the major sins. Yet
Somehow i feel left out and not very loved by Allah.
My biggest probkwm is the the fact the He isnt providing me
With a spouse, and this is making it even more difficult for me
To stay away from zinah. I been prayibg and waiting, i have
Wasted all my youth to be devoted and honorable, and yet
I see people who are way worse than me and evil and Allah
Still gives them. I have come to a point where
I have lost faith conpletwly but still do my obligations.

I have completley lost my love for Allah, the god i sacrifced son much for
, and yet wont give me the most basic thing. I feel left out
I am tested with many other hard tribulations but none come close to
Not bein able to find someone to love.
I feel so so so left out by allah, so deprived of somethint so important
I basialy have come to the point where i dont like his writing for me

I have seen beautiful women even religious ones go to people
Who deseve way less. What kind of God is this?

Seriously. I need to hear your words.

Im just too afraid that i wont ve able to take this anymore
And commit zinah cayse if i wanr, i can.

Even in this strugfle He wont help me, in the struggle of staying good

The problem is that i feel so demotivated. Everytime i try, even when
I feel like there is hope, i fail. I get rejected
I feel so so down. I really cant take much more of this
I been waiting for a miracle for years, i really am dissapointed
I am determined to keep prayint and all this, but still
Cant hide the fact that my heart has no longer love for Allah

I see people who are loved effortlessly, they didnt do anything to
Get that or deserve that why, not me?

I feel so so left out, all my years of youth burnt out, i never knew
A womans love, i am just so in need to be with someone

Not to mention how many times i been rejected all those hurt bad.

[Lostsoul11]

The problem is that i feel so demotivated. Everytime i try, even when
I feel like there is hope, i fail. I get rejected
I feel so so down. I really cant take much more of this
I been waiting for a miracle for years, i really am dissapointed
I am determined to keep prayint and all this, but still
Cant hide the fact that my heart has no longer love for Allah

I see people who are loved effortlessly, they didnt do anything to
Get that or deserve that why, not me?

I feel so so left out, all my years of youth burnt out, i never knew
A womans love, i am just so in need to be with someone

Not to mention how many times i been rejected all those hurt bad.

I have come to a point where i am wishing for Allah to delete me, i really
Aint keen on living. Im so profoundly sad and dissapointed, words
Cant explain.

[Lostsoul11]

I have come to a point where i am wishing for Allah to delete me, i really
Aint keen on living. Im so profoundly sad and dissapointed, words
Cant explain.

I expected some advices but ok..

Hey there! Looks like you're enjoying the discussion, but you're not signed up for an account.

When you create an account, you can participate in the discussions and share your thoughts. You also get notifications, here and via email, whenever new posts are made. And you can like posts and make new friends.
Sign Up

[siman]

Hello My Friend,

Sorry to hear about your struggles in finding someone to love and share a life with. It can be very difficult.
I will pray for you. The Most Merciful and Gracious God cares about you.