Sister,
I do not claim to understand what you are going through - but I know how it feels to be in a situation that appears utterly hopeless. I once read somewhere that anxiety and worry is the devil's playground - as he perpetuates our feelings of helplessness and makes us forget that our Creator is able to give us anything and everything. So keep making dua my dear sister, over and over again and never give up hope for Allah swt says in his Glorious Book, the Qur'an : 'And your Lord has stated: Make dua to me, I will (of a surety) respond to you. Verily, those who are too arrogant to worship Me will enter the Fire of Hell, humilated.' Surah Gharfir, 6.