I feel stuck.

when you know somethings true, everything else fades away...

pretty soon no matter how difficult a path is, you feel that every other path is worthless. The only object of value lies through this path filled with hardship... so why would we turn our faces away for a momentary dillusion...

format_quote Originally Posted by IbnAbdulHakim

when you know somethings true, everything else fades away...

pretty soon no matter how difficult a path is, you feel that every other path is worthless. The only object of value lies through this path filled with hardship... so why would we turn our faces away for a momentary dillusion...

I like what you've written there.. you've a remarkable character but I disagree.
If someone makes Islam akin to a soft drink, they're not sure if diet Dr. pepper or coke will be to their taste buds then they're not ready or they don't understand the religion, or the religion is merely in name when as you and I both know is a complete way of life..

I know I stand at odds with the majority of Muslims on this but I rather have quality Muslims than quantity Muslims..

to the OP: I wish you well in shaa Allah, you'll come to the right decision and not vacillate over it.

Allah says, "Let there be no compulsion in, religion truth stands clear/distinct from falsehood, whoever DISBELIEVES IN FALSE DEITIES AND BELIEVES IN ALLAH THEN HE HAS GRASP THE TIGHTEST HANDHOLD THAT SHALL NEVER BREAK" According to the companions of the prophet [alayhi salam] they said the tightest handhold that shall never break is the saying laa ilaaha illa Allah [meaning there is no deity possessing the sole right to be worshipped in truth and by right except Allah]." So look at islam in its entirety, do you see the relevance in singling out Allah alone in worship? Do you realize that all those other things people worship, they worship them in falsehood because they are not worthy of worship. Every thing that they worship from nature or humans like Jesus and other than him, from trees and idols in which people formed or carved out of wood or stone with their own hands worthy of worship? I will narrate to you a story from the people of the past, once there was a man who was entrusted with the job of cleaning and caring for this idol, so everyday he would wash the idol and use perfume to make this idol smell nice and the people of his area would go there and offer food and sacrifice in front of the idol seeking the idols favor. Well one day a dog passed by it and lifted its leg to urinate on the idol so the custodian of the ido;l quicky chased the dog away and began to clean the idol with water and once again perfumed it, the next day the dog returned and marked his territory by urinating once again on the idol, so the custodian once again cleaned the idol in frustration and perfumed it once again and was everwatchful over the idol and took particular care to make sure that mangy dog would not return to once again disgraced his god. later on that evening the dog returns but the custodian was far off and couldnt reach the idol in time so once again the dog urinated on his idol, needless to say the custodian was angered immensely, but he stood infront of the idol and reflected deeply, "I was put in charge for the upkeep of this idol that I and my people worshipped, but upon my deep reflection I realized why should I worship something that cannot even protect its self from that mangy dog urinating on it." He realized that anything or anyone who could be assaulted or urinated upon with out some type of reciprocation of harm isnt worth worshipping. Now apply that to all those things that people worship besides Allah, Allah mentions in the Qur'aan concerning Jesus the son of Mary and Mary the mother of Jesus, He said, "Kaanaa Yaqulaani Ta'aam" meaning:" and they both ate food" Why did Allah mention that you may ask? Because if some one eats then it is a must that they have a call of nature [i.e defication and urination] so one who is given to a call of nature is a defect and a deficiency from being worthy of worship, In the bible it mentioned that jesus was crucified, beaten, and harmed, now reflect deeply, the Creator who created the heavens and earth, the sun the moon the stars, planets and galaxies and blackholes, trees, stiones, water, our sight, the fact that we breathe and eat, and hear and have the ability to procreate, the one who causes our heart to beat, the one who knows how many times we inhaled and exhaled and how many times we blinked, can this powerful being who did all this be defeated by His creation? Could He be crucified? Of course not! So the logical conclusion is that we, accept Islam and worship Allah alone because He is the only One who is worthy of Worship, Allah is the One who Feedeth but is not fed. I invite you to worship Allah alone, Aslam Taslam! [Accept Islam and be saved] Saved from the worshipping of created being who provide no benefit nor cause any harm, Worship the One who created you and gave you the ability to see His signs, who gave you the abilty to hear His Qur'aan, the One who gave you intellect to recognize the Truth of Islam and the truth found in the Qur'an, The One who bestows guidance upon those who earnestly seek it! Accept Islam and we welcome you to a brotherhood and sister hood who will love you for Allah's sake and will assist you in understanding and practicing this beautiful religion. Doubts are mere whispers but the Truth is like a deafening Thunder that strikes fear in everyone who has the ability to hear. Wa Billahit-Tawfeeq [And succes is only granted by Allah]

Listen His Words carefully,He do have all the fears and stereotypes in his mind.

Once again I agree with Sis Snowflake.Its right on spot

Salam alaykum

Good luck to you both. May Allah lighten your path to islam and make it easy to you. All reverts have been in the same path where you are now.

You might want to read commentary of the Quran. it might help you make the decision and enlighten you about the religion too. i suggest you start with the last Chapters first because they are shorter. You might also want to read just the translation of some Surahs (Chapters) at http://www.quran.com and then read the commentary of chapters or verses you don't understand or find interesting.
You can read one commentary at: http://www.tafheem.net/tafheem.html

I hope you find guidance and can make the decision of conversion soon. Islam is such a beautiful religion, perfectly according to human nature.

format_quote Originally Posted by Naeema

he starts to tell the story of the night he was on his cliff and needed a little push.

Here is the transcript of the stated part:

One night I decided to really trying get this spiritual mood happening and I'm sure probably some of you had heard this story before, so I apologize

I lit the candle, I had the window open

I had the curtain strung, and I was trying to get that really spiritual feeling

It was a nice summer night in Melbourne, summer that can get you heaven

And I was sitting there and I thinking "this is it.." you know, this is the night..

I have been.. you know.. investigating all the spiritual proofs,

all the scientific proofs about the fact the mountain of the piths.,

about, you know, how the embryo develop inside the woman,

all this amazing proofs, but I still needed that little push.

It was like I was at the edge of the cliff, I was ready to jump, I just need the push

So I was sitting there, sitting quite, I was reading Quran, I stopped,

I said, Allah.. this is my moment, this is the time I'm about to jump into Islam,

all I need is a sign, just a little sign, nothing huge, maybe a bolter brightly,

You know.. maybe.. the house could fall down.. or something you know..

something just small, small for you man, you created this, come on.

So I sat there, I was waiting for the candle to start lighting up to form mating high like in the movie.

Then I say, "ok.. GO!"

And Subhanallah nothing, absolutely nothing happens,

I was really disappointed to be honest,

so I sat there and I sad, Allah.. this is your chance, I'm here. I'm no going no where.

I'll give you another chance, okay maybe you busy, you know..

daytime over the other side of the world, all of the stuff going on..

maybe this time I could just leave kaabah flooring, you know, something small..?

the candle.. Lets forget that, I do where could find that, so I don't care, just anything.

So I say "ok, GO!"

And Subhanallah nothing absolutely happens,

and I mean I couldn't even said urr.. that was it, that creep that was sat on the wall, that was it.

Absolutely nothing happens, I was really disappointed, I was gasses.

I was sitting there, thinking "this is it..", you know, this was my last chance, Islam..

and I really, I haven't found it.

I put back the Quran, and turn back to where I was reading.

Subhanallah, the very next verse, on the next page;

“For those of you who ask for signs, have we not shown you enough already, look around you, look at the stars, look at the sun, look at water, these are the signs for people of knowledge.”

Source

Also anyone who wants to know a little more about Brother Abu Bakr(like I once was),click here

Assalamu Alaikum

SubhanAllah! looks like you have reverted to Islam. May Allah keep you firm in your faith and ease all your affairs.