my mother says she is tired of my half sister being mistreated at one of the Gulenist schools by Gulenist administration, on top of what her family had to go through in Turkey, and on top of me being banned from youth events, on top of her dispute with the principal of one of the gulenist schools, as well as possible changes in belief...she believes wemade a mistake by entering politics, and that ustadh said nursi warned against it....she is also not that religious, it seems....I may become more mainstream, and even not have to worry about marriage (to my childhood friend, who ive been worried I wouldn't be able to marry because shes the same age as me and I want to go to grad school), because my wife will be someone I haven't met yet!!! also, I wont have to get AS angry as before when I hear news from Turkey, and I will learn from mainstream (Islamic) teachers!!!! although only Allah knows what will come out of this, I believe, like everything, it is Qadr of Allah, and I see the good that may come out of this....