In a perfect world, I genuinely would want everyone who wants to get married to be able to do so and for Allah to increase their blessings.
The reality of it though is that marriage is NOT destined for everyone. In which case, marriage is NOT their solution. So what happens then? Tell me.
For those who are destined to get married, in it there are trials just like any other blessing we get in this world. If the only purpose you see in marriage is for it to satisfy your sexual desires, then your marriage will fail or struggle because you have neglected to strengthen/generate the other important aspects of marriage.
So with that being said, in the downtime that you're not able to find a suitable wife, you should be working towards being a great future husband, a devout worshipper, a respectful son, a patient and grateful slave, etc.
This may sound crazy, but the way I think about it is that from the day you decided that you wanted to get married, you should have started saving for a mahr. You should have been working to support your future wife because the mahr is just the tip of the iceberg of what you will need to support your future family. You should be making sincere du'a that Allah grants you contentment with his decree no matter what it is, or to make you deserving of marriage, etc. You should be respectful to your parents in the highest degree. If they do something wrong due to culture, then kindly guide them towards the correct way. You should refrain from committing acts of haram because every time you commit something haram you steal from your marriage and your akhira, both of which you will lose if you don't protect your chastity. You can do all of this even if you have not yet been granted a wife. At least if you don't get married, the mahr can be used to perform hajj and the good deeds you do will build you a house and grant you a beautiful wife in jannah. You should be quite independent of anyone else because you really don't need anyone's permission to get married (apart from the girl's father). If you can get it together, who's to really say anything or be unsupportive?
So there's no doubt in my mind, that if a man is truly like this that Allah will forsaken him.
What I see these days is that from the teenage years to the young adult years, the son distances himself from his family unit. He wants to experiment, may have an attitude/be disrespectful, carries a lot of anger, etc. And then after his parents have lost their trust in him, he wants to ask for help when he hasn't really established a good image with them. Another issue is that girls are generally more mature than guys are at that age and therefore prefer someone older. I personally don't have an issue with couples getting married and studying together. It would probably be ideal. I don't think anyone would really have an issue with it if the guy is independent or has a viable plan.
Do you have someone in mind of who you want to marry?
I can understand that you have a lot of pent up anger about your past, but you didn't know and it may be that Allah will forgive you for your ignorance at that age. Sometimes when we are able to repent from such grave sins it makes us stronger believers and worshippers. It opens our eyes and allows us not to fall into anything worse. You are older now, so you should see the importance of knowledge and how it can prevent sins. You can use what you've learned and help others. Your reaction to protect yourself is by gravitating to the idea of marriage, and there's nothing wrong with that. It's something to be respected and revered, but my whole point is that in the meantime you should be mending the things that are breaking you and become a stronger person. I'm speaking to you as I'd speak to my younger brother. I wouldn't want you to be the bare minimum of what a husband is, but to exceed your potential because you have the time and resources to do so despite whether you find a wife or not. If you died tomorrow, what have you built with your time? What would be your excuse? That you didn't get married? You have to believe that when it's your time to get married, you will be married whether you want it or not, whether your parents or community support it or not. If it is meant for you it will happen by Allah's decree and no one can take that away. But the situations you are able to control now you should do the best with them.
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