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I blocked her too.
I had a break from msn for a bit, needed to revise for exams anyway. And i spent abit more time on the forums.
I think it was her exams too now, but i couldn't really change anything.
The past was done, but i could move forward for a better future right? That was my intention now.
On the authority of Abu Harayrah (may Allah be pleased with him), who said that the Messenger of Allaah (Peace be upon him) said:
Allah the Almighty said:
I am as My servant thinks I am. I am with him when he makes mention of Me. If he makes mention of Me to himself, I make mention of him to Myself; and if he makes mention of Me in an assembly, I make mention of him in an assemble better than it. And if he draws near to Me an arm's length, I draw near to him a fathom's length. And if he comes to Me walking, I go to him at speed.
So i did.. i remembered that innocence which i once had, and i wished that i could have it again, infact i wished that i hadn't become bad at all.. but my sincerety to Allaah would show how much i was willing to make myself good again. And maybe if i never experienced this negative side, i wouldn't appreciate Islaam as much?
Like i mentioned earlier, that high feeling was a different flavour to this calm feeling inside.. because with the high, you needed more and more to keep it up.. whereas with this calm/tranquil feeling, it was longer lasting.. it was more deep, and it made me more positive towards others instead of harsh and impatient like that high...
Anyway, i decided to come on msn afterwards.
Why did you do that to my mate for!?
Do what?
I thought you said you loved her?
Listen, i dno wa am doin ayt? leave me alone.
what do u mean?
Nuthin, i'm jus doin what's best for her. tke cre n lukafta er k?
I blocked her too. And a few of her other mates.
After a while, K came online. I think he was my only reliable source to everything, and i trusted him the most..
Salaam (peace be upon u) bro.
w/salam (and u.)
Listen, i want u to join this site ok? the forum that i'm on?
lol ayt man.. i need to sort things out in life anyway, hope Allaah makes them better soon n that.
Ameen, truss bro - my lifes propa fixin up since i've become more whole-hearted in Islaam.
O ye who believe! Enter into Islam whole-heartedly; and follow not the footsteps of the evil one; for he is to you an avowed enemy. [Qur'an 2: 208]
True.. true that bruv.
thanks.
Anyway man, listen.
yeh?
some shockin news.
ayt go on?
have u stopped contact with A?
yh man.. i reli thought we needed to end it.
no wonda.. ayt wel, she had an exam yesterday init.
yh? n wa hapend...
k, wel.. she was havin her exam, n
yeh?
she broke down man..
is it.. u serios?
2ryt bro.. why would i be lyin to u.
oh.. man. that's deep.
i kno man.. n wa hapend after is that they called her parents in.
yeh?
they took her home.. and thats 3 thousand poundz and maybe her future down the toilet man.. u mesd her up bad.
..yeh
u knw that wasn't my intention, init bro? u know i was mesd up back then.
tru man.. thats what life does when your without tru guidance init..
yeh man.. i feel wel bad now.