The OCD WON'T STOP PLEASE HELP

I have OCD, ADHD, and Autism. What troubles me the most is the OCD. OCD is hwen you have intrusive thoughts, like fears of great disaster, which lead to compulsive rituals or habits....for instance, one type of OCD is where someone scared of germs will routinely wash their hands over....and over....and over....and over until their hands get raw and hurt and they can't function due to all the time spent washing their hands. I have a fear of abandonment or lonliness. So I routinely check forums, and obsess over marriage. Although due to the mixture of my autism, it seemed like I also have fixations which don't go away for a long time, where I develop an interest and become obsessed with it for a time.....when i was a kid, it was animals, then it was writing, then it was cars, then it was professional sports, then it was fearing my parents would "raise me wrong", then it was avoiding taking medication, then it was fear of school, then it was fear of jinni possession, then it was marriage. I need help. Someone, please help me.... I have thoughts of killing myself or at least hurting myself so i wont go to hell, but no one seems to care.

Prayers for you.

As Salam alaikum Bismillah I hope this message finds you in peace Ameen ..I suffer the same way the cure for me was to do wudu and step on the prayer mat and pray...believe me it took me 15 years to stand on the prayer rug because of the illnessI did zikr Allah I made Dua I recited surah YaseenI blew Quran on water and drank itAfter so much prayer I now have few or no mood swings I feel happy I feel as my life is not as scary as it sounds I feel like Allah is protecting me...AmeenWa laikum as Salam

Just relax and smile and be happy...

assalamu alaikum

I have same problem with OCD and intrusive thoughts
I will pray for you.

I had a similar problem with intrusive thoughts. In my opinion you are suffering from waswasa. Waswasa is a condition where Satan subtly whispers ideas in your mind but does it in such a way that you think it is your own internal self talk. There is no magic cure to the problem, you have to take refuge in Allah and use the mental technique of constructing a safe space within your mind which you can fortify using Islamic concepts like Tawheed (the oneness of Allah), Tawakkul (reliance on God), Taqwa (fear of God only) and Qadr (Divine Decree) and recitation of relevant verses in the Quran:

“No calamity befalls on the earth or in yourselves but it is inscribed in the Book before We bring it into being. Indeed, that, for Allah, is easy.” (Surah Al-Hadid, 57:22)

“Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves.” (Surah Ar-Ra'd, 13:11)

“And put your trust in Allah. And sufficient is Allah as Disposer of affairs.” (Surah Al-Ankabut, 29:69)

So nothing can happen to you unless Allah wills it and gives permission and Allah only wants what is best for your eternal life. Learn to trust in Allah and hand over all your anxieties and worries to him.