I'm very interested in Islam, but my family is very against it. I have to keep my religious studies secret, but the more I read, the more I want to revert. There are masjids in my city and a good Muslim population, but I am disconnected because of my family. I don't want to go against my parents, but they do not respect Islam. I pray in secret and I read Qur'an in secret and I feel very lonely.
It is not an easy situation to be in. Many reverts have found themselves in a similar situation - even the first Muslims at the time of the Prophet faced such trials from their loved ones. But Allaah is the One who makes the path easy and removes obstacles. Keep asking Him for His help and guidance.
It's important to try and connect with other Muslims in your area so you can get their support and advice, but you know your situation better in terms of how feasible this is. Ultimately, once your heart has settled on the truth, there can be no turning back from it. Islam commands us to be dutiful to our parents, but we cannot obey them when it comes to disobeying our Creator. Allaah says in the Qur'an (interpetation of meaning):
And We have enjoined on man (to be dutiful and good) to his parents. His mother bore him in weakness and hardship upon weakness and hardship, and his weaning is in two years - give thanks to Me and to your parents. Unto Me is the final destination. But if they (both) strive with you to make you join in worship with Me others that of which you have no knowledge, then obey them not; but behave with them in the world kindly, and follow the path of him who turns to Me in repentance and in obedience. Then to Me will be your return, and I shall tell you what you used to do. [Qur'an 31:14-15]
Thank you for your welcome, brother. I desperately want to make connections with the local Muslim community so I can learn more, but if my family found out about my interest in Islam they would never forgive me. It's all a very difficult situation to be in, but insha'Allah things will improve. For now I am keeping my studies private while showing my parents how I'm changing for the better. Even so, I feel like I cannot say my shahadah and become a real, dedicated Muslim until I move out.
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