Salaam everyone I hope whoever reads this is well inshallah.
I need advice regarding my current situation. I'm sorry about the length but think I'll feel better to write it down. About a year and a half ago I was going through some pretty bad anxiety and took medication for it, after stopping the medication however I lost my capacity to function which became worse and worse up until February this year.
My physical and mental health was then destroyed. My symptoms were as follows.
Extreme anger anxiety rage restlessness and depression. I literally had no idea that one could feel the strength of the emotions I felt during this time. Only the thought of Allah got me through these horrible months. My digestive system just stopped working as it normally would, severe gas bloating heartburn burping constipation diarheea. My skin began to itch and burn, my vision became blurry and I struggled to even think or hold a conversation as it felt like my brain was wrapped in cotton. I lost the ability to sleep soundly and would wake up terrified after even a short nap to escape the symptoms. I couldnt even breathe properly and felt as if I was constantly battling suffocation as well as the extent of the mental torment I was going through. Now many months later, I've obviously lost my job and social life although some symptoms have improved. I'm still left with a very sluggish digestive system, blurred vision horrible anxiety and worry, muscle twitches and burning sexual dysfunction confusion paranoia sleep issues itchy skin and spells of crying uncontrollably. Alhamdulillah the ordeal has lead me to prayer and dhikr but I'm just struggling with acceptance still and cling only to the hope of improvement through excessive duaa. Does anyone have any advice? I'm basically just surviving hour to hour now and praying constantly for relief. I've thrown all my future plans out of the window as I have no mental capability nor physical capability of performing like this. Astaghfirullah I never knew life was able to become like this. A nonstop nightmare. Salaam and sorry for going on and I know this is for the best but I'm just struggling.
I need advice regarding my current situation. I'm sorry about the length but think I'll feel better to write it down. About a year and a half ago I was going through some pretty bad anxiety and took medication for it, after stopping the medication however I lost my capacity to function which became worse and worse up until February this year.
My physical and mental health was then destroyed. My symptoms were as follows.
Extreme anger anxiety rage restlessness and depression. I literally had no idea that one could feel the strength of the emotions I felt during this time. Only the thought of Allah got me through these horrible months. My digestive system just stopped working as it normally would, severe gas bloating heartburn burping constipation diarheea. My skin began to itch and burn, my vision became blurry and I struggled to even think or hold a conversation as it felt like my brain was wrapped in cotton. I lost the ability to sleep soundly and would wake up terrified after even a short nap to escape the symptoms. I couldnt even breathe properly and felt as if I was constantly battling suffocation as well as the extent of the mental torment I was going through. Now many months later, I've obviously lost my job and social life although some symptoms have improved. I'm still left with a very sluggish digestive system, blurred vision horrible anxiety and worry, muscle twitches and burning sexual dysfunction confusion paranoia sleep issues itchy skin and spells of crying uncontrollably. Alhamdulillah the ordeal has lead me to prayer and dhikr but I'm just struggling with acceptance still and cling only to the hope of improvement through excessive duaa. Does anyone have any advice? I'm basically just surviving hour to hour now and praying constantly for relief. I've thrown all my future plans out of the window as I have no mental capability nor physical capability of performing like this. Astaghfirullah I never knew life was able to become like this. A nonstop nightmare. Salaam and sorry for going on and I know this is for the best but I'm just struggling.