Brothers and sisters, well i am just going to let it out as keeping this in hurts me, as a muslim i should say Alhamdullah for everything but thats not the case, first is my family i dont get on with them. mY dad left us long time ago and just recently moved in he said he came back for us yet he doesnt really talk to us the only time he does is when he gets annoyed.
My mother is OVER PROTECTIVE not on my 13 years old sister but me, I am nearly 19 and i cant go out with friends, last time i went out was prob 5 months ago, is college home college. I have a sister whos 21 who is brain damaged so i look after her when i return from college,i feel like i cant have fun or be `young` (not in a haram way i practise), my mother seems to be harder on me
At college none of the sisters like me, i am not a horrible person at all, i wear the correct hijab while they dont, so they nicknamed me after my hijab(i dont want to say what
).
I feel alone, I know Allah swt isnt pleased with me because I am miserable and i am turning to sin because of all the stress.
It reached the point where I might apply for Uni over seas whatever they like it or not.
Assalamyu Aleykum, Am so sorry to hear that sister,
Just a couple of things, just feel free to tell me to shut it or anything cos I probably will say something which you might not agree with cos am a brother and I see things abit differently sometimes.
I really do think you need to remember where and who you are sister, it might sound abit harsh, but it works for me, I cant go out alot of the time, I cant go masjid much and so on because I end up coming home late, and mum worries, but Alhamdulilah.
Remember that your
real youth and free time is going to be where? Jannah, Im sure you know and am sure your probably frowing and thinking 'Oh I know but I want a practicle answer for NOW!' But once we realise that this life is all a test it makes it easier to understand that we don't need our 'youth' and 'free time' here, we need to get good deeds and be on the straight path here, and Wallahi, what more can show that you are on the good path than the fact that others nick name you after your clothes, sister please know, those clothes are the,
clothes of righteousness, the best of the best wore them, sister, remember whom so ever wrongs you, you will be paid back for it. Try read the story of Mary, peace be upon her, it sounds similar in some ways to this, the fear and pain and wanting to be 'different'.
And know thatinsha'Allah, you are looking after a person of Paradise, may Allah grant our sister Jannah, paradise, that person your looking after, our sister, inshaAllah will go jannah, its a big blessing to be able to bear near such people.
Also, perform your duties to your mother, be thankful that your mother is who she is, am taking it that she is Muslim, praise Allah for that.
I haven't hear someone who seems more into the practices of Islam than what you have described above, sister, as long as you try your best listen to your mother, be merciful to your father, look after your sister, wear the clothing of righteousness, then how will Allah be mad at you?
Remember who your enemy is, if Allah is mad at you then your enemy is winning, sinning will only make him more happy, always remember Allah and remember your enemy, don't make him happy.
Sister you sound like a nice Muslimah, don't let hard times get you down, keep going and try hard and Allah's promise is the most truthful, and inshaALlah Jannah you'll have your
real youth, because be honest with yourself, what you gonna do? Go out, have a nice dinner, spend time at friend's place, try dresses, go shopping, for how long? Maybe a night here and there, a weekend, a couple of weeks, but the real time of youth, the one which will have real pleasure, if your honest with yourself, is Jannah, where you can go for eternity having your fun, all in the luxury of your youth! InshaAllah.
Eesa.
n my mum still worries bout me, IM REALLY REALLY sorry 2 hear about ya sis, it must be hard , jua talk 2 ya mum, tell her itd be nyc if you cud have a bit of YOU tym, sumt ym to jus get away wid things n jus chill 4 a bit. 