emem.masorong
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I've written a post before concerning ghosts that are ruining my life <a data-cke-saved-href="!134348134!introduce-yourself/134348134-hi.html#post2978538" href="!134348134!introduce-yourself/134348134-hi.html#post2978538">here</a>. This is true. No trolling. It's quite long. But for your ease, I will try to summarize the problem again here. Just check the latter if you're interested in knowing me more.<br><br>This is my 2nd post here. I can't log in to my previous account. I won't tell the reasons as it might make it long.<br><br>I just have a question, because there are these ghosts that popped up somewhere 2013 or 12 and since that time they have been non-stop telling everybody here what's inside my mind! Yes! It's quite irritating at times, and I already came to the point of hopelessness, helplessness, total irritability, contemplating suicide a lot(I have lots of failed attempts and I even planned to do it today. It has become like this the couple of months). I am still alive because I know if I commit suicide, I can go to hell based on the Holy Quran. I am scared and lazy. I would make excuses and all that.<br><br>But the matter I am pertaining here is that I have a question. It is said in the Quran that mentally ill or mentally incapable people are exempted from Jahannam, right? And my case, I thought, it is quite near that or maybe already like that because I am bugged by the ghosts telling everything inside my head. It's like this. When I think of something, like word/s, for example, "what are you doing?", at the same time, she will say it. So there's like this small girl ghost about 3-5 years old and she has other friends quite the same age that can tell what's inside my mind. They're kinda attached to it, and I hear them a little far from me. I don't know how this can happen. That first girl is the one that says all of my thoughts except when sometimes the others would(the other girls. But they are limited to only a few times).<br><br>Sometimes I wonder why would God curse me like this? Am I cursed? Did the Shaitan cursed me? Or was it all just coincidence? But why me? I know there's no point in complaining but imagine you are in my situation. I cannot resist to. And who wouldn't?<br><br>Sometimes my heart would beat so frighteningly because I am anticipating or scared or excited of what they will say from my mind. I feel abnormal.<br><br>Just imagine this thing happening to you. So I did not commit suicide at the beginning when it happened because not until 2016, they have limits in what they say. As far as I can remember, they do not always tell the things I am embarrassed to be known by others or I don't want told. But they do sometimes. Not frequently though. Not until I was smoking Marijuana one day, and my thoughts just seem to be so... You know, flowing free, and that day she was already telling everything. No limits anymore.<br><br>It's hard to think with this. I need to sometimes wait for her to speak it all like a sentence because she's just human and even if I don't want to think of anything, I need to say something. I sometimes need to explain why she said such thing and so on. It's a nightmare. And I sometimes feel I need to commit suicide already because I might be hurting them. What if they are just being forced to talk endlessly using whatever I think, and they've been doing this for years!? They're just little girls, for Allah's(swt) sake! What if? Who could have done this?<br><br>And why are there ghosts here anyways? Did the Holy Quran said no one will leave Jannah or hell once there? How come these ghosts are here? I'm confused. I know Allah can do anything but how come?<br><br>Please help me. I don't want to feel helpless and hopeless again. I don't want to go to hell by committing suicide. But am I exempted because I feel I can't control my own thoughts anymore?
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I'm sorry if it came like that. I wrote it well but the internet stopped and when I came back to publish, this popped up. But please read it because I am desperate for help.
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I'm sorry if it came like that. I wrote it well but the internet stopped and when I came back to publish, this popped up. But please read it because I am desperate for help.
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