Yea i hate feeling that way and at times can even be intimidating or whatever but i know where im trying to get and whats needed and just have to push and i am and on my own read alot and make salah as well as at masjid you know. As far as coming to Islam after years of haram and self defeating stuff i managed ro look into many diff philosophies and religions and somehow always ended up being in presence of Islam through some of the people ive met over the years and about two years ago met a friend who was born muslim and really spent alot of time around him and began to read and learn more and then it just felt right after all the years of wasted time like way it resonated its hard to explain but im sure most converts especially could relate so took my shahada and strayed a bit but last few months have really been working on staying in deen and became more comfortable etc. so now have realized how much it is to learn and one can only do so much on their own w Islam so had to make choice to reach out and gets boring and lonely being a muslim with no muslims to spend time with and relate to etc. found this board and just seemed legit and here i am in nutshell lol, you? are you in US?