Cpt.America
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How do I revive a dying heart?
My Imaan has been slipping.
I have been delaying my prayers sometimes even until I miss them and have to make them up later.
I don't feel the sweetness of salaat.
Ive been lax in reading Quran, sometimes going for days without reading.
My heart feels dead
And my eyes have been dry.
Obvious sins seem more attractive to me.
People online curse in their written speech, and in one conversation I almost thought of using explitives. Not even because I was upset or anything, just for teh lulz y'know.
Astaghfirullah.
Music seems more attractive to me.
I know this is all foolishness and that I will InshaaAllah resist going into sins, or InshaaAllah step away from them if I do.
But I am upset because my heart has been dying, and that is my fault.
I have been under a lot of stress lately, and
I know this is the time I should be getting closer to Allah, not further.
I know I should start by forcing myself to pray on time and pick up the Quran and read more.
But does anyone have any advice?
I can't say I'm one of the good guys anymore.
Maybe I am arrogant.
If this were Star Wars:
The dark side, my naffs and the dunya, are pulling at me,
I feel a struggle within me to stay in the light.
May the Force be with you.
My Imaan has been slipping.
I have been delaying my prayers sometimes even until I miss them and have to make them up later.
I don't feel the sweetness of salaat.
Ive been lax in reading Quran, sometimes going for days without reading.
My heart feels dead
And my eyes have been dry.
Obvious sins seem more attractive to me.
People online curse in their written speech, and in one conversation I almost thought of using explitives. Not even because I was upset or anything, just for teh lulz y'know.
Astaghfirullah.
Music seems more attractive to me.
I know this is all foolishness and that I will InshaaAllah resist going into sins, or InshaaAllah step away from them if I do.
But I am upset because my heart has been dying, and that is my fault.
I have been under a lot of stress lately, and
I know this is the time I should be getting closer to Allah, not further.
I know I should start by forcing myself to pray on time and pick up the Quran and read more.
But does anyone have any advice?
I can't say I'm one of the good guys anymore.
Maybe I am arrogant.
If this were Star Wars:
The dark side, my naffs and the dunya, are pulling at me,
I feel a struggle within me to stay in the light.
May the Force be with you.
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