Yes i had very tired for it, i studied more, really tried, i arrived but i think in my heart is important more, i never be a relax and calm days, i always had stress about things, because in my life i never had any family around myself, they were bad and cut with my parent...we always were alone, when my friend tolld hi my aunt or hi my sister or my ancle, i really feel pain because never i had not them in my life, just once in year, but about 9 years, nobofy come to my house, i know these are not enough reason for jealus or,,,but it is hard, do you know, it is hard and past life effect on future...i fear about future, ah i think i never can feel good, God help me