I feel sometimes our good deeds are never enough. It's scary to think that all we have done still doesn't amount much. Sometimes when we sin which seem minor can be detrimental. Even if we make duas for eveyone and forgive everyone. How can we be certain Allah is pleased with us? There is always this fear that I'm doing something wrong and Allah is not pleased with me.
Tips and advice?
I think we will never know in reality what goes on in the background. We can only pray, repent etc with a hope that our acts are all accepted and or are being offset against our sins.
Why and how we carry out good deeds?, why we sin or have been allowed to have sinned?, we do/did it out of our own free will and because Allah swt enables us to carry out acts via our free will. He gives us thowfiq. We pray he gives us thowfiq to do good only.
We cant see our balance sheet right now. That's the reality of it. We have to follow the course of predestined events and we have to make better choices.
When carrying out a good deed, I.e. giving charity etc. how can you think that it will not be accepted. It is categorically a good deed. Just dont be a hypocrite by involving yourself in a regular cycle of sinning and then performing a good deed straight after. What's the point?
I feel the same sometimes.... that Allah swt is not happy with me, I pray, pray and pray eventually realising we cant guarantee things to go our way if we pray. What is meant for you wont miss you, what is not meant for you wont reach you. We have to face all events we are destined for I suppose and still continue to have faith, have hope things will get better and still do good deeds once we are able to pick ourselves back up. I'm slowly getting the hang of it.
None of us are in direct two way communication with Allah swt so theres no way of knowing whether he is pleased with us or not, we can only give and wait for the day of reckoning, that's what I think anyway.
Only Allah swt knows what is in every heart. The sooner you align this concept with your acts of virtue, your own morals and your own sincerity the sooner you may understand that no act goes unnoticed. Therefore encouraging you to make better decisions insh Allah.
Keep giving, keep giving, keep doing good, keep doing good, keep praying, keep praying, keep up with your virtuous acts until your last breath and never look back! Subhanallah may Allah swt guide us all and comfort us during our trials.