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So I've been thinking. I read that Allah does not love the disbelievers..
Now I am thinking, what if a disbeliever cried to Allah, for guidance???? I mean, I remember in my ignorant days, and when I came across the Quran etc. I cried etc.
Now I am feeling like, no matter how much one cries, or tries. If Allah hates someone, it is no use. I am feeling a kind of despair. :/
I am like, no matter how much I try to turn, cuz I've been a bit disobedient etc.. and Allah may have been displeased etc. I just can't get this out of my mind that "If Allah hates me, then what is the use...."
Or "Even If I tried, if Allah hates me........." Cuz I felt in before becoming practicing that Allah loved me, so I loved Him. And I thought He Loved me, So I turned to Him..
And it is heartbreaking to know, that He'd hate me................
I am trying to love Allah, but this whole hate thing keeps pinning me down.. I loved Allah in my ignorant days........... Yet to think, He'd hate me????
I assumed that Allah loved me, and that increased my love for Allah.. And it softened my heart........... But to think that I assumed yet He hated me???????
I love Allah, but I want Allah to love me too. And it is heartbreaking to know, that He'd hate me.. But I won't let this turn into hate. Cuz I know that is shaytan's goal.
So I will love Allah, even if Allah hates me. I am typing here, Cuz I want know what am I doing wrong?
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