Confusedperson
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Asalam alaikum everyone,
This is my first time posting here. I am just vert emotionally confused about a matter and I do have friends who listen and support but we are all young and going through similar things. Having a more mature and experienced point of view may help me.
I am twenty years old. I started university last year and a few weeks into it, I met a boy. Don't worry this story is well above board. I don't feel very comfortable around boys in general because usually kids around me interact so easily and I haven't been raised that way. And after thinking about it, I realized I didn't want to be that familiar with them either way. I go to an art university so it is hard sometimes but I try to keep myself and my art away from anything that's restricted.
To give you a brief introduction, the boy is very nice. He prays, cares about his family, is modest yet enthusiastic about his work. He's very good at making other people feel better and generally, a good person. This is mostly observations since now we are in the same class and we have a mutual friend group but unless other people are there, we never talk or hang out. Not even via text.
This is embarrassing to write but I felt i guess the word would be connected? to how he thinks and what he wants to achieve. The first thing I heard him say was how he wanted to use his design skills and help people. Our university isn't just fine arts, it offers a lot of design courses that are practical and functional. After that initial meeting, our friend group formed.
A whole year passed. During this time, I told myself that if I still felt this way after graduation, I would find the courage to talk to my parents. Being in a relationship wasn't what I wanted either way. I thought in 4 years we would know each other well enough for me to take a proper decision at graduation.
During this time, we were in different classes. At the end of the year, we would shift into different departments. I really started liking his personality. I have never felt so strongly about someone. I was so surprised because we never hung out alone or again texted or anything. It was all because of how he stayed to help a friend who started crying because of a matter, or how he would get very excited at a board game or how he really liked learning new things. This was all very limited interaction so I allowed myself to feel my emotions. I started thinking maybe this is whom Allah has decided to bless ne with. A kind, nice person who also respected a boundary of decency unlike much of our peers.
At the end of the year, we had a university trip. I found out he actually has a girlfriend. I was very confused but my friends told me he is just very quiet about it or something. I let it go. It was upsetting but atleast I didn't make any wrong decisions.
I still feel strongly about it sometimes though. During ramzan, I prayed that Allah would take the feelings away because if he isn't the person I'm supposed to be with, I didn't want the emotions. I felt quite sad too, idk why but I was so sure that Allah had made our paths meet.
I don't really know how else to get rid of this. We do not talk. Online classes has taken away any limited interaction. We never texted or anything either. On our class groups, he never replies either so no interaction except he likes my artwork on instagram but never comments so again it's been a few months of zeroo interaction.
I guess idk I was disappointed at thinking it was him. Idk how to not feel this way and I was hoping for some advice.
Thankyou to everyone who may reply or read.
This is my first time posting here. I am just vert emotionally confused about a matter and I do have friends who listen and support but we are all young and going through similar things. Having a more mature and experienced point of view may help me.
I am twenty years old. I started university last year and a few weeks into it, I met a boy. Don't worry this story is well above board. I don't feel very comfortable around boys in general because usually kids around me interact so easily and I haven't been raised that way. And after thinking about it, I realized I didn't want to be that familiar with them either way. I go to an art university so it is hard sometimes but I try to keep myself and my art away from anything that's restricted.
To give you a brief introduction, the boy is very nice. He prays, cares about his family, is modest yet enthusiastic about his work. He's very good at making other people feel better and generally, a good person. This is mostly observations since now we are in the same class and we have a mutual friend group but unless other people are there, we never talk or hang out. Not even via text.
This is embarrassing to write but I felt i guess the word would be connected? to how he thinks and what he wants to achieve. The first thing I heard him say was how he wanted to use his design skills and help people. Our university isn't just fine arts, it offers a lot of design courses that are practical and functional. After that initial meeting, our friend group formed.
A whole year passed. During this time, I told myself that if I still felt this way after graduation, I would find the courage to talk to my parents. Being in a relationship wasn't what I wanted either way. I thought in 4 years we would know each other well enough for me to take a proper decision at graduation.
During this time, we were in different classes. At the end of the year, we would shift into different departments. I really started liking his personality. I have never felt so strongly about someone. I was so surprised because we never hung out alone or again texted or anything. It was all because of how he stayed to help a friend who started crying because of a matter, or how he would get very excited at a board game or how he really liked learning new things. This was all very limited interaction so I allowed myself to feel my emotions. I started thinking maybe this is whom Allah has decided to bless ne with. A kind, nice person who also respected a boundary of decency unlike much of our peers.
At the end of the year, we had a university trip. I found out he actually has a girlfriend. I was very confused but my friends told me he is just very quiet about it or something. I let it go. It was upsetting but atleast I didn't make any wrong decisions.
I still feel strongly about it sometimes though. During ramzan, I prayed that Allah would take the feelings away because if he isn't the person I'm supposed to be with, I didn't want the emotions. I felt quite sad too, idk why but I was so sure that Allah had made our paths meet.
I don't really know how else to get rid of this. We do not talk. Online classes has taken away any limited interaction. We never texted or anything either. On our class groups, he never replies either so no interaction except he likes my artwork on instagram but never comments so again it's been a few months of zeroo interaction.
I guess idk I was disappointed at thinking it was him. Idk how to not feel this way and I was hoping for some advice.
Thankyou to everyone who may reply or read.
