AnonymousPoster
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Salam.
I live in a westernized country and I feel that I have matured faster then other people my age.:thumbs_up Don't get me wrong, I still do wrong from time to time. But ever since I had an epiphany, I try to do good. I was involved with someone that would always promise things they couldn't commit to, such as getting a Halal Nikkah and getting married. I recently realized that, that relationship was going no where but in a circle. I also was unhappy being in Haram relations with someone. It made me feel guilty and dirty. As soon as I had a sense of clarity, I preformed the Istikharah prayer and asked Allah (subhaanahu wa ta' aala) for guidance. Ever since that day, I have not had relations with that man. Also he would usually call me but he stopped. I assumed Allah (subhaanahu wa ta' aala) made it easier for me to get out of that haram relationship. So from that my epiphany came. Now I am more into my deen but the only problem for me is. Sometimes, when I see other couples (outside holding hands/or on t.v.) it makes me want to get married. I don't mean for the “sake just to have someone”. But on serious terms, I just feel I am ready. But the issue is being patient because Allah (subhaanahu wa ta' aala) knows all and knows whats best for me. I can be patient but sometimes I have doubts and get worried that I will be waiting for a long time. I try to keep myself busy with going to the mosque and doing other activities to keep my mind of this issue. Sometimes I feel sad and it makes my emaan low.
I live in a westernized country and I feel that I have matured faster then other people my age.:thumbs_up Don't get me wrong, I still do wrong from time to time. But ever since I had an epiphany, I try to do good. I was involved with someone that would always promise things they couldn't commit to, such as getting a Halal Nikkah and getting married. I recently realized that, that relationship was going no where but in a circle. I also was unhappy being in Haram relations with someone. It made me feel guilty and dirty. As soon as I had a sense of clarity, I preformed the Istikharah prayer and asked Allah (subhaanahu wa ta' aala) for guidance. Ever since that day, I have not had relations with that man. Also he would usually call me but he stopped. I assumed Allah (subhaanahu wa ta' aala) made it easier for me to get out of that haram relationship. So from that my epiphany came. Now I am more into my deen but the only problem for me is. Sometimes, when I see other couples (outside holding hands/or on t.v.) it makes me want to get married. I don't mean for the “sake just to have someone”. But on serious terms, I just feel I am ready. But the issue is being patient because Allah (subhaanahu wa ta' aala) knows all and knows whats best for me. I can be patient but sometimes I have doubts and get worried that I will be waiting for a long time. I try to keep myself busy with going to the mosque and doing other activities to keep my mind of this issue. Sometimes I feel sad and it makes my emaan low.