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When one hardship after another befalls you, you can't eat anything... i mean you literally cannot swallow anything because it hurts, your body is so numb with the pain and heartache, mentally exhaustion. You can't sleep at night, you have nightmares about what is happening in your life, you wake up shaking and trembling, only to be hit by the reality of the situation, meaning it wasn't just a nightmare, but it's really happening in your life and you can't go back to sleep.
You stay awake crying, making duas to get better, but crying so hard like there is no way out of this, no way out of this tight corner that you've been pushed in and can't get out, you are overwhelmed with worry, grief and anxiety?
When morning comes, your eyes open, you are hit with the reality again, the reality that life has turned into a complete misery. You don’t want to get out of bed because you are numb with depression and anxiety and thinking what is the point. You try and pray, you cry to Allah telling Him how you feel. Then, time to go to work/college/uni….. seeing people smiling, laughing, hugging loved ones, and you feel overwhelming pain in your heart, that stabbing pain of being so lonely, no one to talk to no one to turn to.
Sitting at work, sitting through lectures etc… you are like a zombie, just sitting there not being able to hear what is being said, not really aware of what is going on around you, you just stare straight ahead with empty eyes, you want to cry but you can’t people are around you and you feel numb, life has come to an end but you are still somehow moving around, just floating around in this world, waiting for actual death but having no peace in your heart, no peace whatsoever, not even for a second.
You go home, the day being a blur, you try and eat, but it hurts, it hurts to eat because you haven’t eaten in so long, then even when you manage a bite, you want to throw up. Then, you start crying, crying so much your body hurts. Not being able to tell anyone what is wrong because they will tell you the usual, “get over it, things will get better”…. “snap out of it!”……”things happen for a reason”……” you will find happiness”….
Bla bla bla but you and they really don’t know what the future holds and you know they’re only saying to help in some way but it’s still not making you feel better, nothing is making you feel better, you don’t even know what you want them to tell you, you don’t even know what you want to hear.
You know you’ve been through this before, yet its worse everytime is comes back, its worse and you lose the will and thepower to live your life as normal. You are just a zombie in this lonely world. No one can hear you, no one can feel your pain and no one sees the tears you cry in your heart.
Have you been through this on several occasions, not just once and still not know how to deal with it, just completely lost and confused even after praying, reciting Qur’an etc?
You stay awake crying, making duas to get better, but crying so hard like there is no way out of this, no way out of this tight corner that you've been pushed in and can't get out, you are overwhelmed with worry, grief and anxiety?
When morning comes, your eyes open, you are hit with the reality again, the reality that life has turned into a complete misery. You don’t want to get out of bed because you are numb with depression and anxiety and thinking what is the point. You try and pray, you cry to Allah telling Him how you feel. Then, time to go to work/college/uni….. seeing people smiling, laughing, hugging loved ones, and you feel overwhelming pain in your heart, that stabbing pain of being so lonely, no one to talk to no one to turn to.
Sitting at work, sitting through lectures etc… you are like a zombie, just sitting there not being able to hear what is being said, not really aware of what is going on around you, you just stare straight ahead with empty eyes, you want to cry but you can’t people are around you and you feel numb, life has come to an end but you are still somehow moving around, just floating around in this world, waiting for actual death but having no peace in your heart, no peace whatsoever, not even for a second.
You go home, the day being a blur, you try and eat, but it hurts, it hurts to eat because you haven’t eaten in so long, then even when you manage a bite, you want to throw up. Then, you start crying, crying so much your body hurts. Not being able to tell anyone what is wrong because they will tell you the usual, “get over it, things will get better”…. “snap out of it!”……”things happen for a reason”……” you will find happiness”….
Bla bla bla but you and they really don’t know what the future holds and you know they’re only saying to help in some way but it’s still not making you feel better, nothing is making you feel better, you don’t even know what you want them to tell you, you don’t even know what you want to hear.
You know you’ve been through this before, yet its worse everytime is comes back, its worse and you lose the will and thepower to live your life as normal. You are just a zombie in this lonely world. No one can hear you, no one can feel your pain and no one sees the tears you cry in your heart.
Have you been through this on several occasions, not just once and still not know how to deal with it, just completely lost and confused even after praying, reciting Qur’an etc?
