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I registered here couple of weeks ago and have been browsing discussion. Many of them are very helpful. Thank you! Now I would like to introduce myself and share my story.
I am Cristian orthodox. I live in Europe. I had long relationship with a man who can’t have children due to health condition. But as I am 34 years old already, I understood that I need no find a way to get pregnant soon if I want to have child, because I am getting older and I would like to have 2-3 children. I prayed for Mother Mary and told to God I would like to have a baby. After two week I was already pregnant from donor, I got pregnant at first try. I was so happy, and felt fulfilled with joy. I loved my baby from the first day of pregnancy. I felt it is miracle that God gave answer to my pray immediately.
But then things started to get wrong. I god bad results at blood test and scanning. Doctors made more analyses, but at 5th month of pregnancy, my baby died. I was very miserable and cried a lot. I didn’t understood what happened. I prayed for baby, got pregnant after two weeks, but after some time baby was taken away from me. I kept asking why. Also I was angry, because I didn’t understood, why I was denied to become a mother. I would have loved my baby so much and take good care of him.
After first shock and plenty of tears I started to think how to carry on. I was on antidepressants and got also sleeping pills, because I couldn’t control my mind and grief was overwhelming. I tried to find solution. But being Christian means that you are supposed to suffer, and I didn’t find any answers from my religion.
I have couple of Muslim friends. They are all very happy and calm persons. They pray every day, and they can rely on God – he will take care of them. I found this idea interesting and started to learn Islam. Now I am reading Quran, also I found this web site. I find idea of Islam soothing. Islam says that I need to accept what I get, to pray, and I will be happy and get reward. Now I feel already stronger, because I know that there is someone to whom I can trust and ask for advice.
I still want to have a baby. I broke up the relationship, because there would be no future and no hope for family, and he didn’t wanted to discuss variants and to have kids. I hope that soon I can move on and maybe find some nice husband, get married and have a baby together, and get a happy, loving family. There are not many Muslims in my country. Most likely I will not find a Muslim husband, and I am not Muslim too, (yet?) but the most important is that the person is good and decent. I keep learning Islam and let’s see what happens. I want to believe that God has some plans for me and I will be happy some day.
I registered here couple of weeks ago and have been browsing discussion. Many of them are very helpful. Thank you! Now I would like to introduce myself and share my story.
I am Cristian orthodox. I live in Europe. I had long relationship with a man who can’t have children due to health condition. But as I am 34 years old already, I understood that I need no find a way to get pregnant soon if I want to have child, because I am getting older and I would like to have 2-3 children. I prayed for Mother Mary and told to God I would like to have a baby. After two week I was already pregnant from donor, I got pregnant at first try. I was so happy, and felt fulfilled with joy. I loved my baby from the first day of pregnancy. I felt it is miracle that God gave answer to my pray immediately.
But then things started to get wrong. I god bad results at blood test and scanning. Doctors made more analyses, but at 5th month of pregnancy, my baby died. I was very miserable and cried a lot. I didn’t understood what happened. I prayed for baby, got pregnant after two weeks, but after some time baby was taken away from me. I kept asking why. Also I was angry, because I didn’t understood, why I was denied to become a mother. I would have loved my baby so much and take good care of him.
After first shock and plenty of tears I started to think how to carry on. I was on antidepressants and got also sleeping pills, because I couldn’t control my mind and grief was overwhelming. I tried to find solution. But being Christian means that you are supposed to suffer, and I didn’t find any answers from my religion.
I have couple of Muslim friends. They are all very happy and calm persons. They pray every day, and they can rely on God – he will take care of them. I found this idea interesting and started to learn Islam. Now I am reading Quran, also I found this web site. I find idea of Islam soothing. Islam says that I need to accept what I get, to pray, and I will be happy and get reward. Now I feel already stronger, because I know that there is someone to whom I can trust and ask for advice.
I still want to have a baby. I broke up the relationship, because there would be no future and no hope for family, and he didn’t wanted to discuss variants and to have kids. I hope that soon I can move on and maybe find some nice husband, get married and have a baby together, and get a happy, loving family. There are not many Muslims in my country. Most likely I will not find a Muslim husband, and I am not Muslim too, (yet?) but the most important is that the person is good and decent. I keep learning Islam and let’s see what happens. I want to believe that God has some plans for me and I will be happy some day.
