Alhamdulillah, I have been getting many thoughts and waswas about shirk and kufr over the past two days. Insha Allah, I hate these thoughs and really want them to go away so that is a sign it's waswas and that I am not accepting it.
Brother, thank you so much for all the help you have been giving me (with regards to the fasting thread as well). May Allah bless you for your patience and help. Ameen.
Asalamu alaykum,
Just randomly kinda found this thread because I was searching up on waswasa too. I used to have very very bad waswasa, I still do sometimes, but I have been getting a lot LOT better with it alhamdulillah through following a practical approach of tazkiyah to better my religion (prophetic-path.com). There's a lot of reasons why this works - you naturally get more wisdom and strength when you follow a course like this and maintain contact with a mentor, and you get smarter as you do the course. You learn to be more and more practical with your religious improvements, it increases your beliefs in Allah's Mercy and Forgiveness, and so it also has an impact on your thinking. I recommend this to all Muslims. Pray Istikhara and make a decision about joining, it is all free and run by volunteers so it may take some time to get messages from your mentor, but you can start the course right away.
Back to waswasa - from my understanding there are actually many different thoughts you can get from the shaytan and I think he can also give you feelings and images. He might make you see someone frowning when they are actually not frowning. There are knowledgable people who know more. So it's important to separate yourself from your thoughts, even if they are intentional, it is okay. Even if all the evil thoughts of everyone in the entire world entered your mind, it wouldn't take you away from Allah at all, and you wouldn't be held accountable. What can also happen is your mind has formed many different associations and triggers, wires, connections, so things just automatically pop up, sometimes nonsensical things, sometimes evil things - it's normal actually. You yourself will keep retriggering yourself if you try too hard to control your thinking, and it will just be tiring and won't actually be beneficial in any way. There's something called scrupulousness, some people are more prone to it than others, and some people get really stuck being scrupulous - what it is is people resort to doing something, whatever "sense" or nonsense it might be, that temporarily gives relief from anxious feelings, so then they feel compelled to keep doing that action/thought or whatever it is - it is a brain trick, and you might not be able to feel that it's not real - it'll feel like a real threat --- can't trust your brain. Gotta trust God and His Messenger, peace be upon Him, and upon all the righteous believers. It's explicitly clear in our religion that evil thoughts of disbelief and kufr come to the believers and it's actually more proof that they believe. It's really just something all believers have to deal with. Some ofcourse have a way better handle on it. And some, like us, have an extremely hard time, especially if we're prone to scrupulousness/ocd kind of behaviors too. But everyone can lessen them and actually just learn to just be fine with them. You don't have to react to them at all with anger or feelings. You just recognize "nope, that aint my thought, don't care how it feels, aint me" - and walk away from reacting further. It's difficult, very difficult, but don't let this thing stop you from focusing on improving your religion/character in a practical manner. Don't focus on conquering this one particular thing head on. It'll come slowly to you while you advance in your practical approach to religion inshaAllah... Also you obviously believe. You don't just disbelieve because of thoughts/feelings that come and go, even if they are intentional and you think that you felt agreeable to it - that's either a feeling shaytan is behind or just some feeling/thought due to the workings of the mind's patterns, associations, fears, balancing out, etc. There's a lot going on up there and sometimes you just automatically have a thought or you feel like you should just think something, or it just feels like a relief to think something so then you feel like it came from you - and partly it did - but not the belief side of you. Your belief is about what you know you have accepted/believed and will affirm with your tongue if anyone asks you what you believe. Your thoughts and feelings and imaginations are not beliefs. They are just tools you could use to help yourself plan actions and they can be used for reflection to help with understanding things. Having perfect thoughts, feelings and imaginations are not the purpose/point of religion. However, however much you can use them positively, and with time and experience using them more and more positively, it can be useful for your actual goal - which is increasing the good actions as much as you can to please Allah, the good actions being following shariah, sunnah, increasing in dhikr, and showing compassion to the creation.
I hope that helped if you still need it. May Allah make it easy for you and all of us Ameen.