I am so upset

[Samia54]

Assalam o Alikum.. . I experience severe waswas for months but sometimes it gets better and sometimes it gets very bad Like for about 2 months I was at peace.. I didn't get waswas that bad. But now for the past few days.. I am getting severe ones.. Like sometimes i get a terrible waswas but I just change my face expressions like movement of eye brows aur anything and i feel like I've done shirk. When ever I talk about an issue i get a thought that a particular thing is mentioned in the Quran but i immediately realize that the thing isn't mentioned so i feel like ive to done kufr again by adding something to the religion.. But I don't speak anything at all.. I can't even smile fully because im bombarded with waswas telling me that im smiling at those waswas even though i don't smile at these thoughts. Sometimes i feel like I've done kufr but i really forget what actually happened that made me think that I've done kufr. Also when i make dua.. I say Ya Allah.. and other names start coming to my mind.. I feel like i am making dua to somebody else.. Astagfirullah.. But i know that Islam is the true religion. I am so upset.. I get a kufr or shirk thought and i feel like I've done something that took me out of the pale of Islam then i keep on recalling what actually happened and what my intention was. I am extremely upset. I dont want to die as a kafir. Please advise me what to do.. One more thing that really concerns me that.. I again felt like i had done something if shirk so I was making dua to Allah to forgive me.. Suddenly a thought came to my mind that I am making dua to Holy Prophet S.A.W. and i even think that I did make dua to Holy Prophet S.A.W unintentionally all under the pressure of waswas.. The moment i realized what had happened I just started crying that I've done shirk. i know Allah is the only lord. i am not sure if I've done shirk or not. I felt like i made dua to Prophet S.A.W but it was unknowingly.. it wasn't deliberate. Advise me please

 

[Eusra Fhaad inshaAllah]

Walaikum As Salaam Wa RahmatUllah,

I have had lot of waswas & it's not easy.Im just gonna give you advice on how you can feel a bit ease.

There's something called OCD,thoughts reoccur&it's not our problem.l,it's more like a disease.We are excused.

Then we get waswas qahri that's from shaytan who tries to lead us to hopelessness &feeling irony of our situation,the best thing is to avoid listening to it& to do your work,it subsides but it may take time,we cannot listen to it,it's not a momins way.you are to do Ruqya on yourself everyday maybe twice(better).

Then there is a fact things can happen as a trial so just seek out Allah's help for dealing with strangest thoughts as these are trials of our times called under duhayma fitan with severity of shaking of believers & with we enormous trials till we say out :

"When will the help of Allah come?"

(Quran)

Its perfectly normal what you are suffering from as you may see much talks on forums about this issue &loads of advices by people who have suffered similar.

I read a wonderful dua (though not much these days )when I start to tremble with strangest thoughts & Allah relieves my situation.

Its a mess,it's difficult,it's ironic & it's horrible to go through but there is good maybe ??I hope so!

So in sum:
OCD
Qahri waswas from shaytan
Trials
Forgetfulness
Mistake


Give yourself relief by knowing that Deen is easy as we have been told.

Quoting dua in next post

 

[Eusra Fhaad inshaAllah]

Nabi sallallahu alayhe wasallam' said:

Shirk among you is more subtle than the sound of the footsteps of an ant on a rock. Shall I not tell you of something which, if you do it, it will take that away from you, both minor and major forms of it. Say:

الَّلهُمَّ إِنِّي أَعُوذُ بِكَ أَنْ أُشْرِكَ بِكَ وأَنا أَعلَمُ وأَستَغفِرُكَ لما لا أَعلَمُ

Allahumma inni a`udhu bika an ushrika bika wa ana a`lamu wa astaghfiruka lima la a`lamu

(O Allah I seek refuge in You from knowingly associating partners with You, and I seek Your forgiveness for that which I do not know)

[Narrated by al-Bukhari in al-Adab al-Mufrad p. 250, No. 716, Ahmad 4/403, Al-Diya Al-Maqdisi 1/45, Ibn Al-Sunni in Amal Yawn wal-Layla No. 258 , Hanad in Al-Zuhd, 2/434 No. 849, Al-Hakim Al-Tirmidhi, 4 / 142, and Abu Yala 1/60 No. 58, and authenticated by al-Albani in Sahih al-Adab al-Mufrad, p. 266, No. 551, Sahih ul-Jami’ As-Saghir 3/233 No. 3731 and Sahih ut-Targhib wat- Tarhib 1/19]

Recite above dua 11 times after every Salaat& recite when shaytan attacks you "Amantu Billahi Wa Rasulihi"& recite it after every Salaat 11 times too.

Tc