Firstly not everything is blamed on Sihr but I personally know of people who were affected and began spewing exactly what you have been spewing with regards to profanities about Allah and Islam and when they had visited a Raqi then it was established that they had affects of Sihr hence why I asked you to at least rule it out if you care to know why you feel like this.
Also regardless of how you feel about Islam then why would you title a thread in such a way in a Muslim forum? Hence why it feels like your behaviour is strange also taking into account your previous posts. But regardless of that you will find that we will try our best to try and help you as much as possible but you also have to do your part and open your heart to finding guidance and the truth as I am sure you are here to find it and I can sense that you are not happy with your current condition.