I need any help at this point

[Bri]

Hi, i am new on the forum. Registered mainly to ask this. I am a girl, converted to islam 4 years ago. I believe i am under a strong influence of evil eye or a really bad curse. Since 1999 my life has been hell. Only and always problems. All good things, if they happen, are taken away from me or end without reason. I tried everything, removing curses with magic, with christianity (before i became muslim) and with listening to ruqyah and reading dua and quran. Nothing really help. I am desperate. I always feel a strong resistance to doing wudu and praying. I am losing hope in God since i prayed to Him many times and He doesn’t help. I don’t know, i am desperate.

 

[Bri]

Hi, i am new on the forum. Registered mainly to ask this. I am a girl, converted to islam 4 years ago. I believe i am under a strong influence of evil eye or a really bad curse. Since 1999 my life has been hell. Only and always problems. All good things, if they happen, are taken away from me or end without reason. I tried everything, removing curses with magic, with christianity (before i became muslim) and with listening to ruqyah and reading dua and quran. Nothing really help. I am desperate. I always feel a strong resistance to doing wudu and praying. I am losing hope in God since i prayed to Him many times and He doesn’t help. I don’t know, i am desperate.

I refrain from doing haram like wearing amulets (which i found they actually help) or other things, i try to rely solely on God but He does not help?