I'm losing Allah's blessings and mercy...

[Studentofdeed]

I still pray 5 times a day but I feel like a hypocrite. I listen to islamic lectures but gotten very angry these days. I have secluded myself from the world and no longer even go to the mosque. It feels as if it has been years since I've gone and I miss the mosque but everytime I go people make fun of me or use me. I have deleted most of my contacts.

A person who is a good muslim but at times I feel like he uses me and doesnt make much of an effort to stay in my life. He called me only to ask for money. He is a good guy and Muslim but as a friend, not very good as he always takes me for granted and thinks I'm rich without realizing I'm a college student who is struggling. Alhamdullah I'm blessed but most of my support comes from my mother while this guy gets his support from both his parents.

I' haven't been learning much about islam lately and stopped praying tahajjud. I used to be able to pray it every day but since my surgery I feel out of touch.
Allah is pushing me away from him. I love my family but at times my sister irritates me. She isnt religious and at times keeps making fun of islam and singing about Christmas to the point when I got angry and shouted at her. My father called me names. I apologized to my sister but I feel horrible. I'm sick of being accused of being a bad musli.. My family are still not happy that I'm not going to the mosque anymore. I'm spending time with them but I'm still not good enough.

On top of that there are so many hadiths about arrogance, I'm not hating anyone because I thinking I'm better then them or anything but sometimes when a specific group people look down on you and consider me as nonmuslim, it hurts. They think they own islam and look down on me. When I told the imam how I felt , he denied it and made it as if I was delusional while admitting the people can be tribal at times.

I try to give dawah about Islam to my friends but at times I started one of my bad habits again due to depression and anxiety. It's not drugs, zina, or alcohol. But it's bad and I feel horrible. I'm trying to stop but when I feel lonely and depressed, I just want to forget the feelings. Everyone says a bad Muslim and the fact that everyone treats me like horrible clearly means Allah wants me humiliated. How can I keep praying 5 times a day or reading Quran when I'm acting like a hypocrite?

 

[taha_]

I still pray 5 times a day but I feel like a hypocrite. I listen to islamic lectures but gotten very angry these days. I have secluded myself from the world and no longer even go to the mosque. It feels as if it has been years since I've gone and I miss the mosque but everytime I go people make fun of me or use me. I have deleted most of my contacts.

Assalam o Alaikum rahamutullahi wa barkuthu.

Do you know what is the character of a hypocrite?

It was narrated from ‘Abdullah ibn ‘Amr (may Allah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him) said: “There are four characteristics, whoever has them all is a pure hypocrite, and whoever has one of them has one of the characteristics of hypocrisy, until he gives it up: when he is entrusted with something he betrays that trust, when he speaks he lies, when he makes a covenant he breaks it, and when he disputes he resorts to obscene speech.”
Narrated by al-Bukhaari (54) and Muslim (58).


A hypcorite is someone who pretends to be Muslim from outside, but his heart does not accept Islam. Please stop thinking negatively.

Listen to me carefully, all you need is put 100% hope 100% faith 100% trust in Allah through your heart.

Love Him more than His whole creation.

A person who is a good muslim but at times I feel like he uses me and doesnt make much of an effort to stay in my life. He called me only to ask for money. He is a good guy and Muslim but as a friend, not very good as he always takes me for granted and thinks I'm rich without realizing I'm a college student who is struggling. Alhamdullah I'm blessed but most of my support comes from my mother while this guy gets his support from both his parents.

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Did you try to tell him about that yet? Tell him with what you said.

try to give dawah about Islam to my friends but at times I started one of my bad habits again due to depression and anxiety. It's not drugs, zina, or alcohol. But it's bad and I feel horrible. I'm trying to stop but when I feel lonely and depressed, I just want to forget the feelings. Everyone says a bad Muslim and the fact that everyone treats me like horrible clearly means Allah wants me humiliated

Again please don't think of Allah negatively again again and again. Simple step is put trust in Him. I suggested you previously to read 99 beauitful names of Allah daily. There are some good islamic apps like Islam 360 which has 99 names of Allah.

Read Quran more. Think about the split of two seas. Allah splited it to make it easy for Prophet musa peace be upon him and his followers and protected them from the worst kafir Pharoh and his followers by drowning them.

All you need is put trust and hope in Him. it is simple. You are being attacked by shaytan again and again.

How can I keep praying 5 times a day or reading Quran when I'm acting like a hypocrite?

Your intention should be to please Allah not anyone. a hypcorite always show off their deeds.

You should ask Allah to protect you from fitnah, and hypcriospy. It is not that hard.

I love my family but at times my sister irritates me. She isnt religious and at times keeps making fun of islam and singing about Christmas to the point when I got angry and shouted at her. My father called me names. I apologized to my sister but I feel horrible.

if ur sister is Christian, share this video

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QEtmSLjgbOU

Tell her some questions. Did Prophet isa peace be upon him and his early true followers, his disciples even celebrated Christmas? Is it even mentioned in Bible? (bible is still corrupted though)

Tell her when was he born? Tell her to share some proof. (The date of Prophet isa peace be upon him's birth is unknown, just as birth of Prophet peace be upon him is unknown too aswell)

I'm trying to stop but when I feel lonely and depressed,

Take Allah as your friend. Your intention is to please Him not anyone. There is a dua for protection from shirk and riyaa

"O Allah, I seek Your refuge with You from assoicating anything with You knowingly, and I seek forgivness for that which I do unknowningly." This is mentioned in a hadith. i cannot find it in my hadith collection app but this link should help
https://hadithanswers.com/dua-for-protection-from-shirk/


One thing. share this Quran verse to the people who claims to be Muslims. A muslim has no right to reject Quran verse. even a word!

{O you who have believed, let not a people ridicule [another] people; perhaps they may be better than them}[Quran 49:11] Adh-Dhahhaak

Since they claim to be Muslims. they can't reject this verse. becuase its Quran, the word of their Lord!!!!!!!


This is my opinion. Please ask Allah to guide you.

I suggest one thing, leave everything to Allah alone. Everything belongs to Him. He has power over them. Nothing happens without His will. Please be patient. Ask Him to grant you sabr, and heal you. Since you mentioned to us about your mental health previously (No offence), try to take rest in your home and listen to Quran for its calming effect which will help you in sha Allah.

Allah knows best

JazakAllah khair

 

[Eric H]

Greetings and peace be with you taha_;

Thanks for sharing, I think your post deserved a like and a rep; which i would have done, except for your request.

Blessings and thanks for sharing your wisdom.

Eric

 

[Eric H]

Greetings and peace be with you Studentofdeed;

Allah wants me humiliated.

It has been said that anyone who has an opinion about God could be called a theologian; it has also been said, that theologians reflect more of their own nature than they do about God. As taha has said, reflect on the 99 beautiful names of Allah, and see if your nature can reflect the true nature of Allah.

May you be blessed in your journey through life,

Eric

 

[taha_]

I think your post deserved a like and a rep; which i would have done, except for your request.

Greeting Eric.

I deserve no thanks or praise / gift from anyone. My rewards is only from my Lord. Anything in this world will be always temporary and taken out by Allah if He wish. Everythings belongs to Him alone, everything depends on Him. His rewards for His slaves in Hereafter is forever.

Read Surah Kahf 32 to 46.

I hope that you will be also Muslim in sha Allah (If Allah wills it).

 

[Nitro Zeus]

I still pray 5 times a day but I feel like a hypocrite. I listen to islamic lectures but gotten very angry these days. I have secluded myself from the world and no longer even go to the mosque. It feels as if it has been years since I've gone and I miss the mosque but everytime I go people make fun of me or use me. I have deleted most of my contacts.

A person who is a good muslim but at times I feel like he uses me and doesnt make much of an effort to stay in my life. He called me only to ask for money. He is a good guy and Muslim but as a friend, not very good as he always takes me for granted and thinks I'm rich without realizing I'm a college student who is struggling. Alhamdullah I'm blessed but most of my support comes from my mother while this guy gets his support from both his parents.

I' haven't been learning much about islam lately and stopped praying tahajjud. I used to be able to pray it every day but since my surgery I feel out of touch.
Allah is pushing me away from him. I love my family but at times my sister irritates me. She isnt religious and at times keeps making fun of islam and singing about Christmas to the point when I got angry and shouted at her. My father called me names. I apologized to my sister but I feel horrible. I'm sick of being accused of being a bad musli.. My family are still not happy that I'm not going to the mosque anymore. I'm spending time with them but I'm still not good enough.

On top of that there are so many hadiths about arrogance, I'm not hating anyone because I thinking I'm better then them or anything but sometimes when a specific group people look down on you and consider me as nonmuslim, it hurts. They think they own islam and look down on me. When I told the imam how I felt , he denied it and made it as if I was delusional while admitting the people can be tribal at times.

I try to give dawah about Islam to my friends but at times I started one of my bad habits again due to depression and anxiety. It's not drugs, zina, or alcohol. But it's bad and I feel horrible. I'm trying to stop but when I feel lonely and depressed, I just want to forget the feelings. Everyone says a bad Muslim and the fact that everyone treats me like horrible clearly means Allah wants me humiliated. How can I keep praying 5 times a day or reading Quran when I'm acting like a hypocrite?

Maybe you feel like you are hypocrite because you pray too fast, don't you? By the way, praying too fast it results hypocrisy is already proven in Quran. Or maybe you are listening to music constantly and this has made your hypocrisy grown so high, isn't it?

This is bad that you no longer go pray in congregation. You see? Not praying in Mosque, will make you a hypocrite, of course if the valid excuse is that Mosques are far away from your home then you aren't hypocrite, but if Mosques are close to you or some of them are close to you, then you have no excuse for delaying prayer in congregation because by praying in congregation you extinguish hypocrisy.

No no no, don't pay attention of who uses you, that is not your job of what he does, Allah will take care of that person, you just do your part by doing good things, if you do good things then you shall have reward from Allah. If he is a non Muslim, just tell him to get lost or you can use him also so that both of you can be equal.

Oh I feel sorry what you're going through. Don't you think that maybe Allah puts trial on you so that He can erase sins from you? It's true, it is mentioned in Quran, just have patient and don't mind what your sister does.

Regarding Tahajjud, Tahajjud isn't obligatory but it is best night prayer which is really encouragable to offer it. One of the blessings of Tahajjud is that you will enter Paradise in peace, you have an easy death and you will be clothed on the Day of Resurrection. So, by not offering it regularly you will have regrets on that Day when you will be awaked to be taken on accountability.

The fact that you feel horrible of doing certain sins, is really good and your chance to make sincere repentance to Allah, so don't lose it, for it is rare chance.

Peace

 

[taha_]

Assalam o Alaikum rahamutullahi wa barakuthu brother.


I would like to share this dua for you, hopefully you will benefit from it in sha Allah. May Allah help you and protect you.

"O Allah! I seek refuge in You from the difficulty of afflicton, from the burden of hardship, from evil judgment and from enemy's malicious rejoicing (for my suffering)"

Another reminder. Please don't stop yourself from making dua. it is very important. Allah will help you in sha Allah.

JazakAllah khair.