crimsontide06
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I am so confused. I have downloaded over 1,300 e-books on various subjects in Islam; so far I have looked at a few pages of several books but never actually read one. I have had most of them for several months.
I don't know Arabic & have not started trying because I am afraid it will be too hard(I feel, why start when I am going to fail or, I am just too stupid to learn it).
I dont read Quran much because I figure, I need to learn Arabic since the English may be no good.
I pray but lately I feel it is just movements with no actual meaning..mainly because I have a hard time not thinking of other things during prayer, my mind wonders to other things....some of it being religious but not prayer.
I know almost nothing about Islamic history, names of any companions...etc.
Another thought that comes(when I chose a book to potentially read) is, how can I know I can trust this source, is it really Islamic or just innovation..
I also, when wanting to learn, start thinking of ways to help others be more religious, when I need to focus on myself..instead of trying to fix others
Should I focus on subjects such as imann, laws/sins..
Maybe it is a trick of shaitain. I have so many ideas of what I should/want to be doing but never any action. This is a huge problem with me even with non religious stuff.
For example, I have learned a lot about exercising,even made workout plans, how to eat right...etc yet I have not put it into action.
I have like 32 files of different Islamic topics, each file has dozens(some have a few hundred) of ebooks,sub files with even more ebooks..
I don't know Arabic & have not started trying because I am afraid it will be too hard(I feel, why start when I am going to fail or, I am just too stupid to learn it).
I dont read Quran much because I figure, I need to learn Arabic since the English may be no good.
I pray but lately I feel it is just movements with no actual meaning..mainly because I have a hard time not thinking of other things during prayer, my mind wonders to other things....some of it being religious but not prayer.
I know almost nothing about Islamic history, names of any companions...etc.
Another thought that comes(when I chose a book to potentially read) is, how can I know I can trust this source, is it really Islamic or just innovation..
I also, when wanting to learn, start thinking of ways to help others be more religious, when I need to focus on myself..instead of trying to fix others
Should I focus on subjects such as imann, laws/sins..
Maybe it is a trick of shaitain. I have so many ideas of what I should/want to be doing but never any action. This is a huge problem with me even with non religious stuff.
For example, I have learned a lot about exercising,even made workout plans, how to eat right...etc yet I have not put it into action.
I have like 32 files of different Islamic topics, each file has dozens(some have a few hundred) of ebooks,sub files with even more ebooks..