Thank you for that. You know, I "accepted" Islam in my heart, because I do believe that it is an absolutely beautiful and near perfect religion, with wanting to do the will of our "creator" and all.
But I cannot just blindly accept everything without thought! Some people are like that! And you know what, I wish I was like that! I really wish that I could just "believe" in something without thinking about it...that would eliminate some of the internal confusion/struggle, but I can't do that. I can't force myself to believe every little thing without question. It wouldn't be completely sincere if I did that. And as you all say here, "Allah knows best". If this is the case, then Allah knows me better than any of you.