Yes I know that feeling and its absolutely amazing!!!!!! I am going to try and explain it more soon when I post on the revert thread which I promised to rewrite my story that deleted like twice
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When I finally started praying. Oh my gosh. I'm telling you, I don't know what happened one night, but it was like this light that was put into me. Even my sister (
she isn't practicing), after it happened she hadn't recognized who I was.
Its this amazing feeling of INTENSE nostalgia and this really strange feeling. A level of euphoria that cannot be shaken by a hardship, of course you will be sad when hardships come, but that level of happiness will stay the same. inshaAllah I will give advice on how to get this thing back.
After I started praying.. I got it for at least a few months I'd say. Of course we won't always be able to feel it
. But I can mildly feel it now, during Quran recitations and lectures. I believe I have a dead heart which is why I don't get it often anymore. But soon inshaALlah that will change
How do I explain it even more. Its this feeling where you take a walk outside... And you feel a strong presence of being watched. You look up at the beautiful sky.. That presence (
Allah)... You're so spiritually in tune that you feel so close.. So spiritually close that it feels like Allah is just right there!!!.You can't physically see. Physically, you are so far.. But it definitely doesn't feel like it
And even sometimes, it can be bittersweet. I don't know if you've felt bittersweet emotion.. I dont even know if it even is named bittersweet, its the best I can think of.
(Its one of those weird emotions, like nostalgia.. Like the really strong nostalgia) There is this random feeling i would get. It would give me the chills and I would jerk a shiver real quick. It's just this really weird feeling that might happen when you're happy or you feel at home.. or even sad sometimes. It makes you confused and lost withou.t an answer.. Then you start to feel out tune with the moment? Something like that. You feel warm, but disconnected. Yeah its weird. I tried telling my brother about it, he thinks I'm a weirdo and its because I'm just weird and emotional like every girl (
eh, he tries to act like hes an expert on women even though he doesn't even have a wife, like if you heard the things he says.. Lord, it really makes him look like an idiot sometimes. It's ok I won't ruin his moments for him haha. ) Yeah but this emotion is not really a girl thing. I've tried discussing it with my sister, she has never felt it. I know some people feel it though, its just rare
I used to feel it RARELY when I was young. I never really felt it again till I became spiritual. But when you are spiritual/religious, it feels different. You do feel confused or lost, but this time you have an answer to that feeling.
When you have that spiritual buzz.. Its this feeling when you are enjoying your time with family or friends.. You're getting caught up in the fun laughing... But then all of a sudden.. you get the chills and release a sudden shiver... "What was that?" you think.. You stop laughing, and you feel confused. Everything pauses (
obviously not physically. But you just feel so out of tune with life as if you become invisible to everyone.. Like you've been mentally disconnected from the world).. You take a moment to look around.. Everyone is laughing.. Having a great time with each other not thinking about the past or future.. Just the present and they're into the moment.. But you aren't laughing with them anymore.. Because that's the moment reality kicks in and everything feels fake.. Like it'll all come to an end. The ground you are standing on.. Even your own body feels fake.. Knowing that it will vanish one day. Its this feeling that makes you feel so disconnected to the dunya that you feel like your disconnected from your own body!! You literally feel like a floating soul.. Even your emotion (being happy, sad, scary, angry) feels fake. You just realize that these emotions are just part of your dunya with everything else that'll vanish. So you just forget about your emotions and remember your just a soul on this earth with one purpose in life. Then you feel overwhelmed, like you need to run iinside and isolate yourself and just pray to find a source of reassurance.. Connect back to your real home.. The one that will not vanish.. Connect back with the One who won't vanish.. Because you have nothing other than that
Yeah that ^^^ feeling is very rare and it comes every once in awhile, it really can happen to anyone I bet.. But if you have a connection with Allah, you wont feel lost like I used to in the first description of this emotion. It lasts 10 seconds to a minute. It really depends. but it is extremely strong. I think if you experience it often, it would be too overwhelming. It is quite a strange feeling
And actually. I get really weird emotions unexplainable emotions. They have names for these online actually. Especially after becoming devout, it has made me become emotional (not in a negative unstable way), but more empathetic and strongly affected beautiful things. I love describing emotion but it is really hard to explain. Understanding something on a logic level cannot compare to actually experiencing and feeling it.
You know, with the spiritual buzz. Sometimes.. It gets so amazing that you'll pray your prayer as if it is your last.. Not only that.. But you can imagine that the angel of death is waiting behind you to creep up and take your soul.
Yeah but the spiritual buzz is overall this extremely nostalgic feeling you get.. You feel at home.. But it makes you do amazing things as a Muslim. It makes you CHANGE A LOT as a muslim and you get this extreme high feeling.
You just feel like you have an extreme overload of spiritual euphoria. Have you ever felt extreme euphoria? It doesnt have to be from religion.. Just anything.. You know how when your angry your head feels angry? Imagine the extremely happy version. Your head feels.. I don't know. It just feels extremely light and high. Life feels different.
You just dont care for literally anything in life except serving Allah in the way he declared.
Often people tried pushing me down as A muslim, from my family and friends. They also thought I was extreme or twisting the religion
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and no, I wasn't being self righteous and criticizing others. I minded my own business, got these comments from something as simple as putting on hijab)
I was told I was going to fail. People would always try arguing and making me feel in the wrong for my decisions. People thought I was weird, but with this high spiritual buzz.. I got annoyed sometimes.. But I never felt ashamed by them and I never sought to please them
Yeah its an amazing feeling. I want to get it back, and it is definitely achievable.
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What the heck the page expired again and deleted my post.. But this time I copied it haaha so I just pasted it
Thankfully, I learned my lesson from the other two times
