anonymous
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Greetings everyone.
These past of couple of months my faith has been decreasing very much, it has been decreasing to the degree that I almost consider myself not having any faith at all. I do not feel anything when I hear about Islam, Allah and the Prophet Muhammad. I do not feel anything when I listen to the Quran. It is all gone. I feel very empty.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Or if anything is wrong with me at all? I can still remember how I use to love Islam, how I use to do my five daily prayers on time, how I use to enjoy listening to lectures and listening to the Quran constantly. These days, I’ve stopped praying, I’ve stopped listening to the Quran and lectures. It all feels so empty, so shallow, nothing…
What’s wrong with me? It feels like this is my fate, to die in this state. I mean when I use to hear those Islamic lectures about fate and all the talk about dying as a believer and as an unbeliever, I use to pray to Allah that the last thing I would say would be my shahada. Today I am almost certain I will die as unbeliever. Is this something horrible to say, to believe? I don’t know because I don’t feel anything at all.
I hope none of you take this the wrong way. I am not writing all of this for the sake of it… It hurts me to write this but I have to so you can understand how I feel. Because I need help. I need help to find the inner peace I once had in my life when Islam was part of it. I need help to to find the faith in me, I need help to find the faith to believe in Allah and His messenger once again… I seem to have lost it all. I don’t know how to get to the state I use to be in.
I know what most of you probably will say…
Listen to lectures - but it doesn’t interest me at all… don’t take this the wrong, most lectures out there speak about the rules and etc, not something that is appealing to me at the moment as I need something for my faith… if you know any good lectures please give it to me.
Keep listening to the Quran – this used to move my heart but today I don’t feel anything at all. I can barely find time to listen to the Quran and even if I do I still don’t want to. It feels horrible for me to say this…
Keep praying – once again… I don’t feel anything at all. I am just making movements, is this what it is all about?
Make duaa – how can I make duaa when I’m not sincere? When I’m not even believing in what I am saying?
I’m so scared… I don’t know what to do.
These past of couple of months my faith has been decreasing very much, it has been decreasing to the degree that I almost consider myself not having any faith at all. I do not feel anything when I hear about Islam, Allah and the Prophet Muhammad. I do not feel anything when I listen to the Quran. It is all gone. I feel very empty.
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Or if anything is wrong with me at all? I can still remember how I use to love Islam, how I use to do my five daily prayers on time, how I use to enjoy listening to lectures and listening to the Quran constantly. These days, I’ve stopped praying, I’ve stopped listening to the Quran and lectures. It all feels so empty, so shallow, nothing…
What’s wrong with me? It feels like this is my fate, to die in this state. I mean when I use to hear those Islamic lectures about fate and all the talk about dying as a believer and as an unbeliever, I use to pray to Allah that the last thing I would say would be my shahada. Today I am almost certain I will die as unbeliever. Is this something horrible to say, to believe? I don’t know because I don’t feel anything at all.
I hope none of you take this the wrong way. I am not writing all of this for the sake of it… It hurts me to write this but I have to so you can understand how I feel. Because I need help. I need help to find the inner peace I once had in my life when Islam was part of it. I need help to to find the faith in me, I need help to find the faith to believe in Allah and His messenger once again… I seem to have lost it all. I don’t know how to get to the state I use to be in.
I know what most of you probably will say…
Listen to lectures - but it doesn’t interest me at all… don’t take this the wrong, most lectures out there speak about the rules and etc, not something that is appealing to me at the moment as I need something for my faith… if you know any good lectures please give it to me.
Keep listening to the Quran – this used to move my heart but today I don’t feel anything at all. I can barely find time to listen to the Quran and even if I do I still don’t want to. It feels horrible for me to say this…
Keep praying – once again… I don’t feel anything at all. I am just making movements, is this what it is all about?
Make duaa – how can I make duaa when I’m not sincere? When I’m not even believing in what I am saying?
I’m so scared… I don’t know what to do.