Lost love for Allah

[Lostsoul11]

Hello brothers and sisters.
I am a 28 year old man, almost 29.
Through out all my life i have been a very decent man, i
Pray 5 times a day, i fasted 16 ramadans completley, avoided zinah
And all the major sins. Yet
Somehow i feel left out and not very loved by Allah.
My biggest probkwm is the the fact the He isnt providing me
With a spouse, and this is making it even more difficult for me
To stay away from zinah. I been prayibg and waiting, i have
Wasted all my youth to be devoted and honorable, and yet
I see people who are way worse than me and evil and Allah
Still gives them. I have come to a point where
I have lost faith conpletwly but still do my obligations.

I have completley lost my love for Allah, the god i sacrifced son much for
, and yet wont give me the most basic thing. I feel left out
I am tested with many other hard tribulations but none come close to
Not bein able to find someone to love.
I feel so so so left out by allah, so deprived of somethint so important
I basialy have come to the point where i dont like his writing for me

I have seen beautiful women even religious ones go to people
Who deseve way less. What kind of God is this?

Seriously. I need to hear your words.

Im just too afraid that i wont ve able to take this anymore
And commit zinah cayse if i wanr, i can.

Even in this strugfle He wont help me, in the struggle of staying good

 

[Lostsoul11]

Hello brothers and sisters.
I am a 28 year old man, almost 29.
Through out all my life i have been a very decent man, i
Pray 5 times a day, i fasted 16 ramadans completley, avoided zinah
And all the major sins. Yet
Somehow i feel left out and not very loved by Allah.
My biggest probkwm is the the fact the He isnt providing me
With a spouse, and this is making it even more difficult for me
To stay away from zinah. I been prayibg and waiting, i have
Wasted all my youth to be devoted and honorable, and yet
I see people who are way worse than me and evil and Allah
Still gives them. I have come to a point where
I have lost faith conpletwly but still do my obligations.

I have completley lost my love for Allah, the god i sacrifced son much for
, and yet wont give me the most basic thing. I feel left out
I am tested with many other hard tribulations but none come close to
Not bein able to find someone to love.
I feel so so so left out by allah, so deprived of somethint so important
I basialy have come to the point where i dont like his writing for me

I have seen beautiful women even religious ones go to people
Who deseve way less. What kind of God is this?

Seriously. I need to hear your words.

Im just too afraid that i wont ve able to take this anymore
And commit zinah cayse if i wanr, i can.

Even in this strugfle He wont help me, in the struggle of staying good

The problem is that i feel so demotivated. Everytime i try, even when
I feel like there is hope, i fail. I get rejected
I feel so so down. I really cant take much more of this
I been waiting for a miracle for years, i really am dissapointed
I am determined to keep prayint and all this, but still
Cant hide the fact that my heart has no longer love for Allah

I see people who are loved effortlessly, they didnt do anything to
Get that or deserve that why, not me?

I feel so so left out, all my years of youth burnt out, i never knew
A womans love, i am just so in need to be with someone

Not to mention how many times i been rejected all those hurt bad.

 

[Lostsoul11]

The problem is that i feel so demotivated. Everytime i try, even when
I feel like there is hope, i fail. I get rejected
I feel so so down. I really cant take much more of this
I been waiting for a miracle for years, i really am dissapointed
I am determined to keep prayint and all this, but still
Cant hide the fact that my heart has no longer love for Allah

I see people who are loved effortlessly, they didnt do anything to
Get that or deserve that why, not me?

I feel so so left out, all my years of youth burnt out, i never knew
A womans love, i am just so in need to be with someone

Not to mention how many times i been rejected all those hurt bad.

I have come to a point where i am wishing for Allah to delete me, i really
Aint keen on living. Im so profoundly sad and dissapointed, words
Cant explain.

 

[Lostsoul11]

I have come to a point where i am wishing for Allah to delete me, i really
Aint keen on living. Im so profoundly sad and dissapointed, words
Cant explain.

I expected some advices but ok..

 

[siman]

Hello My Friend,

Sorry to hear about your struggles in finding someone to love and share a life with. It can be very difficult.
I will pray for you. The Most Merciful and Gracious God cares about you.