fishman...its normal...we all are going through the same situation..
if you can read book 'DON'T BE SAD'....you'll think differently towards Allah subhanahuwata'ala and your life..
Be grateful of what you have now...for that you should be happy...
Allah promised in the Qur’ân, “Alif, Lam, Mim, do people think that they will be left alone on (merely) saying: ‘We believe,’ and not be tested (in their claims)? We have indeed tested those who were before them; and Allah will certainly make it known those who were truthful and He will certainly make known the liars.” [Sûrah Ankabût 29:1-2]
“And whoever does good equal to the weight of an atom (or a small ant) will see it (on the Day of Resurrection to be rewarded) and whoever does mischief equal to the weight of an atom shall see it.” [Sûrah Zalzalah 99:7-8]
“O mankind, We have created you from a male and a female, and made you into nations and tribes, that you may know one another. Verily, the most honourable of you with Allah is that (believer) who has the most taqwa (piety). Verily, Allah is All-Knowing, All-aware.” [Sûrah Hujurât 49:13]
“Whoever works righteousness – whether male or female – while he (or she) is a Believer, verily, to him We will give a good life (in this life with contentment etc), and certainly We shall give them a reward (in the eternal Hereafter) according to the best of what they used to do.” [Sûrah Nahl 16:97]
“The case of a believer is amazing! Every affair of his is good for him, and this is not for anyone except a believer: if he experiences something pleasant, he is grateful to Allah and that is good for him; and if he comes across some adversity, he is patiently persevering (i.e. has sabr) and that too is good for him!” [Compiled in Sahih Muslim]
The Prophet informed, “Nothing strikes a Muslim – no fatigue, illness, worry, grief, hurt nor sorrow; not even a prick of a thorn – except that Allah wipes off due to it some of his sins.” [Collected in Sahih of Bukhâri & Muslim]
“Or did you think that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) that came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, ‘When will come the help of Allah?’ Yes! Certainly, the help of Allah is near!” [Sûrah Baqarâh 2:214].
Yes, but whoever submits his face (himself) to Allah (i.e. follows Allah’s Religion of Islamic Monotheism) and he is a Muhsin (good-doer i.e. performs good deeds totally for Allah’s sake only without any show off or to gain praise or fame, etc., and in accordance with the Sunnah of Allah’s Messenger Muhammad Peace be upon him ) then his reward is with his Lord (Allah), on such shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve. [surah al-baqarah, ayah 112].
Just remember fishman...our life is a journey...we cannot be perfect. We cannot expect that we can be in the highest iman...within a day, a week, or a month... Even the wali, the ulama'...even their iman can be weaken...
We should try our best in whatever we do and we should not give up. Thats what islam has teached us. Do you think we have tried our best? Do you think we are at our best? Shouldn't we as a muslim be the best in whatever we do?
Fishman....just like when we're studying. If we think the subject is hard...even when we didn't even study or go into the class...for sure..the subject will be hard and we cannot fully comprehend what the teacher is doing.
Same like salah...if you think salah is hard....for sure you cannot perform salah...the best way as you can.
Remember Allah subhanahuwata'al will always be there for you if you're sincere in what ever you do.
inshallah ya will
). It will help to boost your imaan, when you see with your own eyes the Miracles of the Holy Quran. I promise.
