Assalaam `Alaaykum
You are in my duaas. There is a purpous of life, that purpous is to worship Allaah, so stand in front of him and ask him, cry to him as he hears all. Be sincere, let your feelings out. The feeling of standing before your lord Allmighty is beautiful, please do not give up in life because Allaah has something for you that will please you, something that will not make you unhappy anymore, but untill then worship Allaah and do that which is good for you, recite Al`Quraan and smile.
As Allaah swt says in the Quraan : "Then do ye remember Me I will remember you." (2-152)
Remember as the remembrance of Allaah do hearts find peace. :"Verily! Only in the Zikr of Allah will your heart find peace." (Quran (Surah 13: Verse 29)
peace