AnonymousPoster
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Something really terrible happened in my life some months back, it was brought on by myself on the whole, but there was lots of little and huge things that happened around that, that i could have never have expected, or known or wanted, and some were totally out of my control in a way, and really really major, bad and even a life or death situation..which nearly resulted in death. (I'd just like to make it clear i never physically harmed anyone or did anything to put someone's life at risk, i was only on phone contact with that person, but i feel the chain of events lead, or atleast encouraged, the last thing)
I can't move on from this, everyday i wakeup with this all in my mind, fear and worry and guilt and that people will find out everything was caused by me. I have been praying for forgiveness and mercy, but i just can't move on from this even if i am forgiven and if no other effects happen in mine or other people's life because of this. I won't ever be able to forget it and niether will other people who it affected. I keep wishing time will move faster to help fade the memories, to heal the wounds, to replace with good memories..and just to be forgotten..but i feel like no amount of time is going to fade this.
imsad
I can't move on from this, everyday i wakeup with this all in my mind, fear and worry and guilt and that people will find out everything was caused by me. I have been praying for forgiveness and mercy, but i just can't move on from this even if i am forgiven and if no other effects happen in mine or other people's life because of this. I won't ever be able to forget it and niether will other people who it affected. I keep wishing time will move faster to help fade the memories, to heal the wounds, to replace with good memories..and just to be forgotten..but i feel like no amount of time is going to fade this.
imsad