I am so sorry for your loss akhi..
I can understand your grief.. my aunt lost three sons, and it nearly killed her, but Allah swt has blessed her with one son and insha'Allah her losses will weigh heavily in her scale.. to top it, the doctor who performed a C/section on her left a packing towel when he opened her and denied it, left her for dead, until she had complete bowel necrosis and was taken to the ICU eventually for months of bowel resection and surgeries, one of the reasons her son died, was they didn't have proper NICU care for him...
I share this story with you, not to infringe on your rights to grieve but to share with you the human condition that afflicts us all.. you see each one in life has experienced a loss of some sort, might not be a child but all our dear loved ones...
وَلَنَبْلُوَنَّكُمْ بِشَيْءٍ مِّنَ الْخَوفْ وَالْجُوعِ وَنَقْصٍ مِّنَ الأَمَوَالِ وَالأنفُسِ وَالثَّمَرَاتِ وَبَشِّرِ الصَّابِرِينَ {155}
[Pickthal 2:155] And surely We shall try you with something of fear and hunger, and loss of wealth and lives and crops; but give glad tidings to the steadfast,
الَّذِينَ إِذَا أَصَابَتْهُم مُّصِيبَةٌ قَالُواْ إِنَّا لِلّهِ وَإِنَّـا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعونَ {156}
[Pickthal 2:156] Who say, when a misfortune striketh them: Lo! we are Allah's and lo! unto Him we are returning.
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