Umm Amatullah
Rising Member
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Please consider my situation. I have been desperately wanting to seek an elder on this issue for 2 months since it began. What happened was, 2 months ago I made a mistake with my beloved companion. Now she interpreted as the fact that I was feeling too neglected in their company- due to her kind nature, she thought that ,alongside my other friend, we should just give salam to each other and have no further attachment. I thought I could cope, but I can't, it is much worse and I have not had a chance to sit and speak with them directly- I have just been using other sisters. The problem is now I do want to reconcile with them (although there is not really a grudge, just a distance that I am dying of). Although, I want the reconcilliation, I don't what to discuss because I fear they may have coped. I am so lost, but have my trust in Allah, which is the thing that is keeping me alive in this tough situation. I want to say I loved them for the sake of Allah and I praise their humility and character, but I am just so lost without them- I could say that they were the sweetners of my soul. Yet, in their company they feel that I am most neglected as some of their friends cannot connect to me. I don't want to die of this distress and don't want to be wasting time. I feel like crying- and sometimes I pour out (al hamdu lillah, during dua a lot of the time). I don't even see how things can improve, in terms of my love for them, but I understand that Allah makes all things possible. I need to ask for sincere advice, what do I talk to my companions about that will enable them to rectify the relationship that has been so badly broken? I know they don't want to isolate me, but I feel isolated. I really am broken- May Allah guide you to the advice that will guide me, ameen.
