fakerameen
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thanks i am sooooooooo going to do that and if she starts hating me, its all on youhew
spencer trust me if u do that i'll kill you! dont you dare to do anything like that! i've had enough of all this! how many times do i have to keep telling you guys there's nothing that could be done to help here! we'll talk in school tomorrow!
and let me clear up some stuff here: first my mom is not abusive, her reaction was reasonable. people usually tell her there's something wrong with me and that i should go see a doctor.
second, yes i admit its annoying and i really do get hurt and i cry and all that because of it but i'm not taking anti-depressions or thinking of committing suicide.and yeah its because i'm good at hiding my emotions! but the thing is i tell myself its just a phase and it'll pass....that i'm in ninth grade now and in one and a half year i'll graduate so its going to get over. i think i can bare it, even though i cant, but the thing is i already have more than enough to deal with at my home.....
and i tell myself that after after some years when while i'll be giving autographs and interviews and stuff i'll have a good and epic story to tell! not like yeah yeah i just had an ordinary childhood. thats more epic you know! and i dont know how, but i hardly think about it if i'm busy doing something else.and that everyone has problems, no one's life is perfect and maybe allah is just testing my patience and my faith so i'm not going to loose hope and fail it!
and theres so much more in my life thats so much more interesting! its not like i think over it all day man! to be honest i myself dont know how i can ignore all that....allah's miracles i guess....(thats just what i think)
and i tell myself there are kids in afghanistan who dont know if they'll live tomorrow. and kids in syria who shout out for help but no one answers and i'm here getting support without even asking for it and theres so many muslim kids who cant afford to go to school and so many who cant
afford to eat one meal in a day and so many homeless and so many in africa deprived of the new tech world and so many deprived of both mom and dad....i just cant afford to ask for help even from allah, and go through it without showing it hurts me, when i think of all that man!
and the day spencer you saw me crying.....was the day joey was back to school remember........
for those who dont know:now what actually happened was i had done a great job, so great i dont want to talk about it( i'm being sarcastic here) now this one time we were on a school excursion and this guy would walk infront of me while i was praying again and again...the teacher stopped him after a while but i was still really mad at him and then i did that "great job"
....so for the next four days that boy did not come to school, my teacher called my mom and told her even though it wasn't my fault it would be nice if she asked why he wasn't coming to school and apologise if it was because of me.
my mom did not go but instead got really mad at me for creating issues and problems and said she's not going to apologise to those people because they are sooo and then i had to go alone... i did go and said sorry before they said anything...his parents said nothing but joey said its ok and he was sorry too and then we talked about school.....it was so weird because his parents were there staring at me as if they're about to kill me...
now when he got up to get his books, his mom grabbed my arm turning me towards her, her one hand pointing towards me and she grabbed my collar with the other and said :stay away from my son and if i see you around him again you cant imagine what i'll do to you and your family...i'm
like i'm sorry i never meant to do that and she just keeps on saying stuff like my mom works at one of the schools in her property and she'll sue her and she'll put me in trail for blah blah blah.....i start crying and then his dad is like thats enough and asks me to get out and be careful next time! and i leave....
the next day at school when he was there......i wanted to cry out loud because it reminded me of the day before, its her son who wont leave me alone but even then i'm the one who's being oppressed......and as soon as i got out of school i couldn't keep it inside anymore.....so its not like i cry everyday
and the times scarlett mentioned might have been somewhat something similar. because there are many times i've had encounters with their parents that really scared the sh** out of me and i cant always keep my feelings inside, bcz i'm human. and yeah thats the reason why i dont complain....
and please.. i'm neither pretty or anything like that .....everyone only likes me bcz they copy my homework and i help them whenever needed and dont keep on reminding them of it forever! and the boys more because of basket ball!
i cant speak up even on the internet bcz people think its again for seeking attention(like my mom does)
spencer trust me if u do anything like that..........i'll have to kill either you or myself!
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