Not a bad guy

[anonymous]

Please do NOT comment or give suggestions on the words in Italic in this post.

I am fully aware of the word "fish" that is often used in some forums.

A girl was thinking of me a fish in a forum. She did not directly tell me that what she expects from me but she was quite successful in giving me some hints. Moreover, her friends started to investigate about me thinking that I was unaware of what they were doing. I have a strange sixth sense which alerts on every such occasion. Sometimes I tell people that what they are up to before that they tell me about their plans. You may say I am to some degree a telepath.

I have some problems in my life and I am not sure when exactly the problems overcome me and I commit suicide.

In such a situation, I did not want to fool that girl by falsely telling her that I was the one she was looking for. I wanted her to forget about me. I did not encourage the girl in a least bit because I did not want her to start dreaming of someone who may commit suicide any minute. I tried my best to make her realize that I do not see her more or less than a sister. I in my every post called her with the word sister. I in may every post tried to make her realize that I shall never marry her. I was scared that she might not go so far in her delusion that tomorrow she gets depressed. I know how bad this thing is. So today I intentionally hurt her very badly to make her think that I was a bad guy and not worthy enough that she should think of me. I was successful, she will not think of me like this again.

If she had come to me directly, I'd have simply told her all about me and made things clear without causing her embarrassment but she was beating about the bush. I did not have courage to directly tell her that I was not born for her, reason being, she did not directly tell me anything, I was only going by my strange sixth sense and was not hundred percent sure that what she was up to.

The problem with me is that I get very depressed when someone thinks of me negatively. I am at the peak of building depression at this moment. I do not know how to explain it to her that I am not a bad guy but whatever I did, it was for her benefit. Whatever I did, it was to stop her from dreaming of me because she could never get me.

I do not know what should I do to get rid of my depression that I have at this moment of time because of being sure that 1. I hurt her very badly 2. she is thinking of me very badly.

Please do NOT comment or give suggestions on the words in Italic in this post.

 

[Re.TiReD]

I opened this and thought I was being told off for saying the word fish. But now I'm lost :-\

 

[Cabdullahi]

at first i thought this was directed at sister jolie but the thread is abit confusing

 

[Cabdullahi]

Please do NOT comment or give suggestions on the words in Italic in this post.

I am fully aware of the word "fish" that is often used in some forums.

A girl was thinking of me a fish in a forum. She did not directly tell me that what she expects from me but she was quite successful in giving me some hints. Moreover, her friends started to investigate about me thinking that I was unaware of what they were doing. I have a strange sixth sense which alerts on every such occasion. Sometimes I tell people that what they are up to before that they tell me about their plans. You may say I am to some degree a telepath.

I have some problems in my life and I am not sure when exactly the problems overcome me and I commit suicide.

In such a situation, I did not want to fool that girl by falsely telling her that I was the one she was looking for. I wanted her to forget about me. I did not encourage the girl in a least bit because I did not want her to start dreaming of someone who may commit suicide any minute. I tried my best to make her realize that I do not see her more or less than a sister. I in my every post called her with the word sister. I in may every post tried to make her realize that I shall never marry her. I was scared that she might not go so far in her delusion that tomorrow she gets depressed. I know how bad this thing is. So today I intentionally hurt her very badly to make her think that I was a bad guy and not worthy enough that she should think of me. I was successful, she will not think of me like this again.

If she had come to me directly, I'd have simply told her all about me and made things clear without causing her embarrassment but she was beating about the bush. I did not have courage to directly tell her that I was not born for her, reason being, she did not directly tell me anything, I was only going by my strange sixth sense and was not hundred percent sure that what she was up to.

The problem with me is that I get very depressed when someone thinks of me negatively. I am at the peak of building depression at this moment. I do not know how to explain it to her that I am not a bad guy but whatever I did, it was for her benefit. Whatever I did, it was to stop her from dreaming of me because she could never get me.

I do not know what should I do to get rid of my depression that I have at this moment of time because of being sure that 1. I hurt her very badly 2. she is thinking of me very badly.

Please do NOT comment or give suggestions on the words in Italic in this post.

Brother first of all you dont have some supernatural ability...case closed....secondly just tell the girl to stop it and focus on your religion

 

[AnonymousPoster]

Tell her to stop and that you dont like it, simple. Im also not a big fan of the whole fish this fish that business.

 

[anonymous]

Just forget about the word fish. Post is crystal clear to let you understand the whole situation without understanding this term.

I may not have sixth sense but yet I being a human have five senses and I can get things quite easily.

I've already mentioned it in my post that she is gone never to come back again, I'm sure about that. I don't want you to tell me what I should tell her to forget me. She has forgotten.

Eagerly waiting for a suggestion how I can get rid of my depression?

 

[Re.TiReD]

This thread is freaking me out. Seriously.

Erm. LOL! As of today I will never say the word fish. For some reason.

 

[Re.TiReD]

Just forget about the word fish. Post is crystal clear to let you understand the whole situation without understanding this term.

I may not have sixth sense but yet I being a human have five senses and I can get things quite easily.

Eagerly waiting for a suggestion how I can get rid of my depression?

Well if it's on a forum as you say then just leave it and get yourself banned.

Is ur depression because of her or something else?

 

[MO783]

I am abit confused, just tell the girl in a nice way if it will happen then it will, tell her your feelings and leave the rest to Allah

 

[anonymous]

Well if it's on a forum as you say then just leave it and get yourself banned.

Is ur depression because of her or something else?

I don't care for her because of her being a girl. I don't like it that anyone anywhere think bad about me. Thats all the problem.

I shall leave the forum. Good suggesion.

Just come out with it and tell her the truth of the matter. There was no need for you to have been 'bad' in the first place.

I shall think how I can approach her.

As for behaving with her badly, she was being on the front foot even after I had tried to make her realize that I was not at all born for her.

I am abit confused, just tell the girl in a nice way if it will happen then it will, tell her your feelings and leave the rest to Allah

It will never happen. She has realized very well. Point is what I can do to get rid of my depression.

A few good suggestions I've got. Waiting for some others.

 

[Re.TiReD]

ok...I have several questions.

Why are you depressed? Shouldnt she be depressed coz u rejected her?

And if she's fogotten then whats the prob? If you're not in contact then how would you know what she thinks of you

 

[anonymous]

Why are you depressed?

Should I not be depressed after realizing that I have hurt someone even though I did it as a last resort? You may ask, why not you think about it before hurting her? Well! have you ever asked a person who repents to God after committing a sin that why he did he not think before sinning?

Shouldnt she be depressed coz u rejected her?

She can answer this question better than me.

May be she is depressed. And that is increasing my depression with each passing moment. Unless she forgives me, God won't forgive me. But as I said in my first post, I didn't have an option but to say "NO!".

I should have said it politely but how? She was beating about the bush.

And if she's fogotten then whats the prob?

Conscious. Do you know what it is? At least I do feel that I have to answer some questions that are knocking at my mind.

If you're not in contact then how would you know what she thinks of you

Even if I am in contact with her, I can't know what's in someone's heart. Your question went straight over my head.

 

[Re.TiReD]

This thread is giving me depression

No joke, I'm going to lose sleep over why you used the word fish now.

In case anybody is wondering, this thing isnt me :-\

And bro, the most I think you can do is ask Allah (swt) to forgive you and forget the rest insha'Allah. If you can then ask her but I wouldnt recommend it.

You did what you had to do so thats it....Isnt it?

And what I meant is, why bother what people think of you? If you're content in the fact that you did the right thing, then good for you. If you're happy knowing you did the right thing then rest easy bro.

We all hurt people, whether intentionaly or unintentionally...what matters is what we do after that.....and not cause more pain

 

[Cabdullahi]

This thread is giving me depression

No joke, I'm going to lose sleep over why you used the word fish now.

In case anybody is wondering, this thing isnt me :-\

And bro, the most I think you can do is ask Allah (swt) to forgive you and forget the rest insha'Allah. If you can then ask her but I wouldnt recommend it.

You did what you had to do so thats it....Isnt it?

And what I meant is, why bother what people think of you? If you're content in the fact that you did the right thing, then good for you. If you're happy knowing you did the right thing then rest easy bro.

We all hurt people, whether intentionaly or unintentionally...what matters is what we do after that.....and not cause more pain

Sister jolie there's no need to get dipressed you are already suffering stress from uni and stuff..everybody uses the word fish and to get dipressed over it because sum1 from another forum had problems with another person who uses the word

 

[Ali.]

You need to elaborate more; who is this girl, and do you mean fish as in the animal or the racial slur?

 

[anonymous]

And what I meant is, why bother what people think of you? If you're content in the fact that you did the right thing, then good for you. If you're happy knowing you did the right thing then rest easy bro.

Why not bother? I did right thing as per my circumstances but yet I hurt a human. Not only because I rejected, but because I did it IN PUBLIC. How am I gonna know how much she was hurt? I've to ask her to forgive me otherwise I feel that I'll not get rid of my depression.

We all hurt people, whether intentionaly or unintentionally...what matters is what we do after that.....and not cause more pain

We all hurt people but a human isn't a human who doesn't ask the victim to forgive him for hurting so badly. You can't even imagine how badly I hurt her IN PUBLIC.

You need to elaborate more; who is this girl, and do you mean fish as in the animal or the racial slur?

What will you do after knowing the name or id of the girl? How will it help me in getting rid of my depression?

Do you really didn't get what kind of fish I mean? I don't think so. Even if you didn't get, leave the fish aside. Other things, I've made them clear in my first post.

 

[Re.TiReD]

Well it seems you know what you want to do. You want to ask her forgiveness. Do it then.

 

[Ali.]

What will you do after knowing the name or id of the girl? How will it help me in getting rid of my depression?

That's not what I meant. Is she your ex-girlfriend/random girl/family friends daughter or what?

Do you really didn't get what kind of fish I mean? I don't think so.

You could've just told me.

Even if you didn't get, leave the fish aside. Other things, I've made them clear in my first post.

Um, OK if you are really going to limit the amount of advice that can be given, I second what Jolie said ^. What you have apparently made clear is in my opinion very brief.

 

[Cabdullahi]

Do you really didn't get what kind of fish I mean? I don't think so. Even if you didn't get, leave the fish aside. Other things, I've made them clear in my first post.

This fish word is getting to me now!
brother ask allah for forgiveness ,do istikhara and sit in the corner on your own for a bit and contemplate and come up with an action that you will do thats islamic

 

[anonymous]

Well it seems you know what you want to do. You want to ask her forgiveness. Do it then.

I didn't know what to do when I started this discussion. After that I was writing previous post, a thought just flashed in my mind that I HAVE to do it ....... I HAVE TO ASK HER TO FORGIVE ME.

But I'm somewhat afraid. And that is that it's in her hand that she forgives me or not. As she couldn't compel me to do what she expected from me, so am I helpless in compelling her to do what I want her to do.

Anyway, I'll pray to God to make her hart soft for me. Thank YOU dear friends. Now I know what's important for me to do. I'll go and ask her to forgive me. Simple as that.

Take Care.