lynn4now
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Salaam to you all,
I just prayed for the first time with all the sincerity I had in me. My mind focus only on Allah face pressed to the ground in subjugation and I will have to say even now as I type I am overwhelmed at how.... right it felt as awkward as it should have been. I stumbled through Al-Fatiha arrivingat rukoo into sujood trying to follow the prayer booklet as much as I can without looking by the second rak'ah it felt as natural as walking. I have not said shahadah with the intention of conversion but the words are growing closet o my heart the more I study and pray and read. I am from a Baptist family so this will not be easily accepted by any of them. My sis doesn’t understand as is, my desire to cover or my feeble attempts to eat with my right (I’m left handed) or my dissatisfaction with the church. I will make the rest o fmy prayers and duas today isha’allah in hopes of clarity and go to the Mosque Sunday ,they have a new Muslim mixer. I don’t know if I belong there than but at some point I must bite the bullet maybe then I will say Shahadah with the proper conviction. I can not say just yet but I know I want more of Allah and Islam in my life. Speaking of the Mosque what is okay to wear? I have no formal Khimar although I have been wearing the hijab for two weeks and only allowing my hands and feetto show (major transition praise Allah that it has been cold)I don’t know what is appropriate. I still do have my fears as wonderous as Allah is but my spirit seems happy so I will keep moving forward.
I just prayed for the first time with all the sincerity I had in me. My mind focus only on Allah face pressed to the ground in subjugation and I will have to say even now as I type I am overwhelmed at how.... right it felt as awkward as it should have been. I stumbled through Al-Fatiha arrivingat rukoo into sujood trying to follow the prayer booklet as much as I can without looking by the second rak'ah it felt as natural as walking. I have not said shahadah with the intention of conversion but the words are growing closet o my heart the more I study and pray and read. I am from a Baptist family so this will not be easily accepted by any of them. My sis doesn’t understand as is, my desire to cover or my feeble attempts to eat with my right (I’m left handed) or my dissatisfaction with the church. I will make the rest o fmy prayers and duas today isha’allah in hopes of clarity and go to the Mosque Sunday ,they have a new Muslim mixer. I don’t know if I belong there than but at some point I must bite the bullet maybe then I will say Shahadah with the proper conviction. I can not say just yet but I know I want more of Allah and Islam in my life. Speaking of the Mosque what is okay to wear? I have no formal Khimar although I have been wearing the hijab for two weeks and only allowing my hands and feetto show (major transition praise Allah that it has been cold)I don’t know what is appropriate. I still do have my fears as wonderous as Allah is but my spirit seems happy so I will keep moving forward.
