Please help I need help badly

[i need help]

I’m a 14 year old and I think I have waswas I keep getting these thoughts that I don’t believe in Allāh and when i think about these thoughts I feel as if I don’t believe and when I read my isha namaz I get these thoughts that I don’t believe and I am now confused if I believe in allah or not I just want to believe in allah but I feel as if I don’t believe because when I get these thoughts I feel as if I don’t believe but I want to I don’t want to become a Muslim and throughout my day I read my namaz and sometimes do the shahadah randomly then throughout my day I know what to do with these thoughts and other times I don’t please help

 

[Islami.Mu'mina]

Assalamu alaykum. It is normal to get these thoughts for some people. But you must understand that it is waswas. Try to increase faith by reading Quran, watching lectures, and increasing sincere dhikr.
One good thing to do is this. I think there was a hadith or it was just advice from a scholar that I will mention.
When you get this bad thought/question, do your best to expel and banish this thought. and then say AMENTUBILLAH ( I believe in Allah) proudly and confidently. Do not DWELL on the same thought. Humans were created to philosophize, it is a natural habit. Try to push these thoughts away.

I pray the best for you

 

[i need help]

Thank you it seems to be getting worse I sometimes I feel so religious and the next it’s terrible and I feel as if I don’t believe what is going on