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salaam to all the brothers and Sisters
may Allah reward all the brothers and sisters who make effort to help
I am need of help, 7 years ago i turned to Islam as a way of life, i lived a Islamic way of life for 3 years but due to hardship i turned away from Allah. This has led me to being depressed fo 4 years and falling my degree (mainly to do with priority in life and motivation). i have also thought of suicide 3-4 times but my belief that suicide is a one way ticket to hellfire makes me stop. Everytime i try to turn back to Islam i think of the immense hardship and this turns me back to a non-Islamic way of life. I have tried at least 7-8 times but due to my lack of taqwa i always give up.
The hardship i feel mainly comes from my understanding of what a human can do to give dawah to muslims and non-muslims. I feel a burden to give dawah to every person in my family, friends, street and university. i also feel pressure to perfect my knowledge and understanding of the quran and hadith. I also feel a burden to succeed in life which i know myself is not my purpose in life. When i lived a Islamic way of life before i had a understanding that Allah does not accept half Islam and i must either live a complete way of life or give up. Can some brothers and sisters help me please!
My second help that i need comes from my understanding of Islam. As someone who does not know Arabic i cant open the quran and understand something. Also because some hadiths are strong and some weak i am not allowed to suddenly read a hadith and say that is the meaning. The best example is salah where many hadiths contradict each other from different madhabs but they are not wrong due to the hadith where the wrong person will get 1 reward and the right person 2 reward. Now can someone tell me on what basis can you agree on a mujtahid? i can only think of trust at the moment but is there anything else?
may Allah reward all the brothers and sisters who make effort to help
I am need of help, 7 years ago i turned to Islam as a way of life, i lived a Islamic way of life for 3 years but due to hardship i turned away from Allah. This has led me to being depressed fo 4 years and falling my degree (mainly to do with priority in life and motivation). i have also thought of suicide 3-4 times but my belief that suicide is a one way ticket to hellfire makes me stop. Everytime i try to turn back to Islam i think of the immense hardship and this turns me back to a non-Islamic way of life. I have tried at least 7-8 times but due to my lack of taqwa i always give up.
The hardship i feel mainly comes from my understanding of what a human can do to give dawah to muslims and non-muslims. I feel a burden to give dawah to every person in my family, friends, street and university. i also feel pressure to perfect my knowledge and understanding of the quran and hadith. I also feel a burden to succeed in life which i know myself is not my purpose in life. When i lived a Islamic way of life before i had a understanding that Allah does not accept half Islam and i must either live a complete way of life or give up. Can some brothers and sisters help me please!
My second help that i need comes from my understanding of Islam. As someone who does not know Arabic i cant open the quran and understand something. Also because some hadiths are strong and some weak i am not allowed to suddenly read a hadith and say that is the meaning. The best example is salah where many hadiths contradict each other from different madhabs but they are not wrong due to the hadith where the wrong person will get 1 reward and the right person 2 reward. Now can someone tell me on what basis can you agree on a mujtahid? i can only think of trust at the moment but is there anything else?
