The business failed and now I am unemployed and feel so ashamed of going to the job centre to sign on. I feel I have let my wife, kids and parents down big time. My farther and everyone was very proud of me when I had this job.
I feel like I am in the same situation that I was 5 years ago when I was unemployed and kept asking Allah for a good job and Allah provided me with the job I recently left.
I feel like my life from a young age to now has been going up then down, happy then sad, happy then sad. I cant take this anymore!!!! I always make the wrong decision.
Every member of my family now have jobs and I am the only one without a job. I feel so ashamed and hate myself.
I do my 5 daily prayer and I have learnt a lot of new dua, read the translation of the Quran fully and I have learnt a lot about myself and people who I cannot trust in my family. My emaan has improved as a result of this hardship and test that I am facing.
With the grace of Allah, the same job that I left came up again and I applied, passed the application stage and went for the interview and now I am waiting for the results.
Brothers and sisters please make dua for me that I pass the job interview that I done in May 2012 and I move onto the next stage of the interview process, the results should come by post this month (June 2012).