Something we both have in common?....I dont really know sis. I really want to learn to cook and stuff but she has littloe patience and really does not want m hanging over her shoulder. She wont let me touch things in her kitchen if I suggest I'm trying to cook. Cleaning - now thats a different story. She wants me to clean the kitchen till kingdom come, and there is no problem in her mind with me cleaning it - just cooking is a big NO NO.
Everytime theres some time in our busy day and I try to talk to her or hug her, she just pushes me away - she says shes tired and to leave her alone.
I wish I could knit with her or something, but she is not up for it. Ive talked to her before, she just says she doesnt have time. Nevermind. Yesterday she was ranting on about how weak I am (because i was really tired when i came home) and was falling asleep on the floor. She said, "If you cant hack uni, dont do it! Youre like 'this', like 'that'. Are we forcing you? huh? huh?"She repeated herself aggressively like this for about 5 mins and then she wouldnt talk to me nicely because I didnt respond to her insults.
I annoy her. Because apparently "other girls" look after the home, cook, clean perfectly, look great all the time, are married, have kids, and go to work! Wow. Well, mashallah for them, but I cant pull all that off so well. She compares me to a lot of people and she just wants me to be like them, Miss Superwoman.
I feel so down at myself for this - I cant live up to her expectation. Its not humanly possible for me. Ya Rahmaaaaaaaaaan!
