
I'm Sumayah. This is my first post here. Okay, see... I need advice. I'm struggling a little bit. See, when I was 15 I accepted Islam, and practiced for about a year. Since then I havn't practiced it, and I started to disbelieve (for the most part). I went into a whole 5 years of fornication, alcoholism, drugs, tattoos and I got married at 18.... I strait up spoke words of hatred about God. Only Allah can remember why I went through all of this. Masha allah I gave it all up, including my husband, after stumbling upon the quran and some books that were given to me 5 years ago while moving some things in my house. I moved to my sister's house (who is a Muslim of 6 years). I've been praying, fasting, reading.. I wear hijab.. the whole nine. I'm still fall very short and I can't help but feel guilt about the things that I've done. I really don't know what to do. I'm pretty lost, and I feel uncomfortable talking to my sister about these things. If anyone can help with some advice.