Assalaamu alaikum Aisha,
I am sad to hear of your pain. I don't think I quite fully understand your situation, because you have not given many details. But I am concerned that you may not be in a healthy situation. Are you in your native country? Do you speak the local language? Do you have any family members you can lean on? Do you have any friends? Do you have any access to social services? Are you afraid of anything?
(gently) Hang in there, my dear.
May God, the Gentle, Protect you and Enfold you in His Care.