Greetings,
ponderer, you have to find your own way to Allah i.e. through reasoning and understanding. Try to put aside petty claims like other scientists don't believe in God while others do in modern times. That isn't going to increase or decrease you in faith in Allah. It's just drifting to another direction which is irrelevant.
Ponderer's had to put up with quite a lot of
loaded adjectives in his short time here. It seems strange to see someone say "give me a reason to believe in god" and then get treated like
that.
So atheists will say 'i dont know' clearly.
This is probably the most accurate part of your post. I'll check again, but I think pretty much every other sentence of your post contained some kind of mistake, untruth or strawman.
To be an atheist, you need to believe
one thing:
There is no god. (Or, there are no gods, which amounts to the same thing.)
You don't have to have any specific belief about what caused the universe, whether the universe had a beginning or not, whether the Hubble telescope existed in 1929, or any number of other issues.
Too often, the religious will say things such as:
"An atheist would tell us it all happened by chance."
"An atheist would say it was all done by nature."
I think an honest atheist would have to say: "I don't know".
None of us do. Theists think they have found the answer; atheists think it's the wrong answer. And a wrong answer isn't really much better than no answer at all.
Peace