struggle with my husband and Islam

[Shamnadanu]

For becoming a muslim...you need only 'Laailaaha illallah Muhammed arRasoolullah'
in your heart...recite Laailaahaillallah'
there is no God worthy of worship other than Allah and Muhammad is the mesenger of Allah....

Dont stop reciting this ....whisper this everytime


because You are a muslim...and you are getting high rewards for your struggles and also dont you need rewards and trust from Allah...recite this in your heart.... fullfill your husband s duties...pray for him .....You can salah secretly if possible...you can pray salah anytime...even midnight..or when alone.....

if husband say goto church go and pray to Allah...you are real Christian you are not following Eesa pbuh ...you understand Eesa pbuh is the prophet.

 

[Shamnadanu]

when i typed 'secretly following islam' in google...i found there are similar people Allah gave hidayah...Allah have a lot mercy on you..thats why ...

your husband /anyone in this world cant block you mind and heart to worship Allah


If you are thinking of Death....Allah can only take your death....

 

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He says i can be on the forum as i said ill break the router he not happy his mother is visiting in two weeks time
am not allowed to wear the haj-jab unless am praying av not to go out in it
still have to go to church and a morning service on a Wednesday at the hospital and go to the other church things
Allah is in my heart and my soul i am calling out to him and to my brothers and sisters in Islam
My heart feels broken without Allah ...my husband calls it an obsession
Mentally ill or not I know where i belong

 

[sister herb]

Warm hugs to you from me.

 

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Thank you sister ((((( hugs )))) ...he threw out my easy to put on hajabs i only have lose headscarfs with no pins
ill just need to tie them around me for the moment my sister is also here and she says i shouldnt follow Islam as well
but am not listening to them at all ...Feeling less suicidal now i need to try and get my prayers done i have missed so many
and i fear that Allah maybe angry with me
I love Allah and Muhammad I Love my brothers and sisters in Islam

 

[sister herb]

Remember that Allah loves the most of those whose he sends the hardest test.

 

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I prayed for the first time in a long long time ...am so happy i was able to pray
My husband is sleeping at the moment my sister is kinda awake av heard her moving about
made myself some decaff tea Earl grey listening to the quran ...Starting my day
we not up to much today i dont really do much on a Monday

i hope you all have a nice day

 

[sister herb]

Have a nice day to you too sister.

 

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My husband is scared that i might be knifed or acid thrown on me because i wear the hijab
there has been so much negativity towards Muslim and Islam the travel bad by trump and other things in the news my husband has tried to compromise with me about the hijab he said i can wear a beanie hat instead of a hijab unsure if that is ok i have tried to talk to him
its my safety he is worried about and i understand with what going on politically in the news is upsetting him
I feel we shouldnt have to hide who we are as it what neo-nazis and Islamophobic people want they want us to be scared ....
I am so tired of us fighting we had fights 3 night in a row :argue:

he now said i can hear a head scarf as long as it dont looking like the hijab we are slowly getting there :exhausted

 

[sister herb]

Here was before discussion about how to use hijab at the islamophobic area and one option was using hat or cap with hijab. I sometimes have used a hooded sweater. It covers my head and neck but doesn´t look like too islamic.

Like these ones: https://www.google.fi/search?q=hija...ved=0ahUKEwibmdK80fvRAhVGb5oKHffxDTUQ_AUIBigB

 

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Thank you for the link Sister i been wearing my beanie hat and a scarf when am out the house ... my husbands been ok
we not fighting as much things have calmed down ... saw my psych and she says there is a possibility that i change my medication
she going to wait until am more stable she says she wants me to not self injure so much she says mentally am unstable
but not enough to warrant admission or anything like that

saw the pastor of the church my husband goes too we had a chat she said am welcome there no matter what faith i am
my husband still wants me going to my groups that are involved with the church as its been helping with my mental health
all faiths are welcome at my husband church and groups
i can pray to Allah when the services are going on

 

[sister herb]

That´s good to hear. Hopely things will go better in your life.