Assalamualaikum everyone
I suffer from intrusive thoughts and I am not able to manage them. They are not going away.
The worst thoughts I get are from my old job. I worked in a bank, the people there were not good. I still get thoughts of my old boss yelling and screaming at me. The way he treated employees was disgusting, he yelled and sweared at them and tried to justify his abuse. I dont think he even realized he was abusing us, thats how delusional he was.
I am trying very hard to forget this man, I left my job but he wont leave my head. I think I have OCD.
I left my job when someone threatened to beat me, fed up I complained to my boss but he instead starting screaming at me that he runs his office his way and I am overreacting. He even said some nonsense like everyone in the bank fears me!
I quit after that, the boss starting avoiding me after I asked for a reassignment. This was the same guy who asked me to join in the first place, his attitude changed after I joined and he acted like he was doing me a favor.
Its a much longer story but Ive shortened It and I want to get rid of my intrusive thoughts.
I feel like Ive failed, I feel like I did something wrong by allowing him to scream at me. I've told him on whatsapp that he doesnt act like a civilized person and I didnt join to satisfy his ego.
But I cant let go it, I get waswas regarding my job. Hes still screaming at me in my head and I want it to stop. Its been an year since Ive left and I want it to stop now.
I suffer from intrusive thoughts and I am not able to manage them. They are not going away.
The worst thoughts I get are from my old job. I worked in a bank, the people there were not good. I still get thoughts of my old boss yelling and screaming at me. The way he treated employees was disgusting, he yelled and sweared at them and tried to justify his abuse. I dont think he even realized he was abusing us, thats how delusional he was.
I am trying very hard to forget this man, I left my job but he wont leave my head. I think I have OCD.
I left my job when someone threatened to beat me, fed up I complained to my boss but he instead starting screaming at me that he runs his office his way and I am overreacting. He even said some nonsense like everyone in the bank fears me!
I quit after that, the boss starting avoiding me after I asked for a reassignment. This was the same guy who asked me to join in the first place, his attitude changed after I joined and he acted like he was doing me a favor.
Its a much longer story but Ive shortened It and I want to get rid of my intrusive thoughts.
I feel like Ive failed, I feel like I did something wrong by allowing him to scream at me. I've told him on whatsapp that he doesnt act like a civilized person and I didnt join to satisfy his ego.
But I cant let go it, I get waswas regarding my job. Hes still screaming at me in my head and I want it to stop. Its been an year since Ive left and I want it to stop now.